1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:13,619 Thank 2 00:00:13,619 --> 00:00:29,980 you. 3 00:00:30,000 --> 00:00:37,000 I'm going to stalk him and become obsessed with him and wear his makeup and his dresses. 4 00:00:37,000 --> 00:00:43,689 Do you blame yourself? What? Well, it's quite common in this 5 00:00:43,689 --> 00:00:49,500 situation for a patient to feel a kind of guilt. What situation? 6 00:01:00,000 --> 00:01:13,620 Thank 7 00:01:13,620 --> 00:01:29,980 you. 8 00:01:30,000 --> 00:01:43,620 Thank 9 00:01:43,620 --> 00:01:59,980 you. 10 00:02:00,000 --> 00:02:07,370 I'll say goodbye soon Though it's the end of the 11 00:02:07,370 --> 00:02:15,990 world Don't blame yourself now And if it's true, 12 00:02:15,990 --> 00:02:25,310 I will surround you And give life to a world that's 13 00:02:25,310 --> 00:02:35,699 our own Thank you, I'll say goodbye soon Though 14 00:02:35,699 --> 00:02:42,659 it's the end of the world, don't blame yourself now 15 00:02:42,659 --> 00:02:51,069 And if it's true, I will surrender And give life 16 00:02:51,069 --> 00:03:11,889 to our world, that's our world ♪ 17 00:03:21,129 --> 00:03:40,520 ♪ Thank 18 00:03:40,520 --> 00:03:56,879 you. 19 00:03:56,900 --> 00:04:03,909 My heart has deep, my heart has deep, it's 20 00:04:03,909 --> 00:04:10,740 left for something I see. My heart has deep, my heart has 21 00:04:10,740 --> 00:04:17,430 deep, it's left for something I see. My heart 22 00:04:17,430 --> 00:04:26,329 has deep, my heart has deep, it's left for something I see. 23 00:04:26,899 --> 00:04:33,980 I thought I had you, but you didn't, I had you, cause you never 24 00:04:33,980 --> 00:04:41,519 met something like me, my heart has seen, my heart has seen. 25 00:04:56,899 --> 00:05:03,439 Disclaimer. If you want to stop me, you're going to have to do a lot more than ban me. 26 00:05:03,439 --> 00:05:06,620 If you're uncomfortable with the subjects of this show, that's on you. 27 00:05:06,620 --> 00:05:09,620 I will no longer be apologizing for doing what I do. 28 00:05:09,620 --> 00:05:14,220 If something offends you, it's satire. If it doesn't, I'm at every word. 29 00:05:14,220 --> 00:05:21,920 Enjoy the show! Well, we're having, obviously, an acceleration of cases now. 30 00:05:21,920 --> 00:05:25,019 We're having now the beginnings of what's called community spread. 31 00:05:25,180 --> 00:05:29,220 I can't give you an exact timeframe in part because they have to go through a review... 32 00:05:29,220 --> 00:05:33,560 Someone's down right here. You could easily hack into them. 33 00:05:33,560 --> 00:05:38,959 I also want to talk about an update to a warning regarding a complication to the J&... 34 00:05:38,959 --> 00:05:44,779 Why is gas so expensive and why is the United States inflation rate at a four-time decad... 35 00:05:55,180 --> 00:06:06,319 so all right partners 36 00:06:06,319 --> 00:06:17,689 keep on rolling baby you know what time 37 00:06:17,689 --> 00:06:25,199 it is it's time for fred Durst to show 38 00:06:25,199 --> 00:06:30,519 up and tell you about life, tell you about living, tell you about loving, telling abo... 39 00:06:30,519 --> 00:06:37,089 Anyways, good evening, ladies and gentlemen, and welcome to Big Dig Energy. It's coming... 40 00:06:37,089 --> 00:06:43,819 It's Thursday. It's the middle of the month, and I've done one show, well, like one and... 41 00:06:43,819 --> 00:06:47,199 The winds of change are blowing in my favor at long last. 42 00:06:47,199 --> 00:06:53,439 The thing, listen, I feel like a completely different human being, So much so that I... 43 00:06:53,439 --> 00:06:56,579 My towel's hanging over the back of my chair. Crushed it. 44 00:06:56,579 --> 00:07:00,199 Don't even look at that. I was... I don't... 45 00:07:00,199 --> 00:07:04,720 What? Get out of here! Anyways, that was embarrassing. 46 00:07:04,720 --> 00:07:08,079 I just realized that. It's just because everything's so beige in here. 47 00:07:08,079 --> 00:07:12,120 You know, whatever. Hey, sometimes people use towels. 48 00:07:12,120 --> 00:07:16,899 I don't know if you're one of those crazy freaks or not. Shut up, Warren. 49 00:07:16,899 --> 00:07:23,850 Anyways. The winds of change are blowing in my favor, And I feel like, I don't know, I... 50 00:07:23,850 --> 00:07:27,860 for a long time and I've been talking for a long time. 51 00:07:27,860 --> 00:07:34,920 And I think very, mostly just, I don't know if mopey is the right, I've been in a funk. 52 00:07:34,920 --> 00:07:43,240 And I've just been praying and for direction, for just like a path forward. 53 00:07:43,240 --> 00:07:49,279 Because every time I would try to do anything, I just, I could not bring myself... 54 00:07:49,319 --> 00:07:55,910 And I don't know what it was on Tuesday, but I just started 55 00:07:55,910 --> 00:08:00,180 moving forward. I started doing stuff and I couldn't stop. 56 00:08:00,180 --> 00:08:07,819 And I don't really know exactly. Like, it's just it's like going from a zero to a one ... 57 00:08:07,819 --> 00:08:13,339 And that momentum has not stopped. I was kind of like, is this like a manic episode? 58 00:08:13,339 --> 00:08:20,060 I don't think I have those, but maybe. But I don't want to, I both, A, don't want 59 00:08:20,060 --> 00:08:26,939 to, you know, be like, but I've been asking God for a plan and a path. 60 00:08:26,939 --> 00:08:33,519 And I also have let go of the notion that asking God for help 61 00:08:33,519 --> 00:08:42,200 in the little thing, you know, is too little to pray about, to bother. 62 00:08:42,460 --> 00:08:50,440 Like, I don't have an all-knowing, all-powerful God who can literally move... 63 00:08:50,440 --> 00:08:53,440 Do moles actually make hills? I don't know. I've never seen one. 64 00:08:53,440 --> 00:09:00,029 But you know what I mean? And one of the biggest things about developing as a... 65 00:09:00,029 --> 00:09:04,279 in my adult life... What the fuck am I talking about? 66 00:09:04,279 --> 00:09:10,950 Growing in my actual faith rather than the performative, not actual faith that I had ... 67 00:09:10,950 --> 00:09:17,590 years and then the falling out with the church, uh, has just kind of realized that... 68 00:09:17,590 --> 00:09:24,120 thing that you can do in, uh, or at least the greatest thing I've been able to figure ou... 69 00:09:24,120 --> 00:09:30,970 let go of the idea that you're in control of any of it and you've got, you've given up... 70 00:09:30,970 --> 00:09:37,620 control, you know, to God, uh, that's kind of like where the real fun begins, 71 00:09:37,620 --> 00:09:44,149 So anyways, I've been praying and everything feels so different, even though it doesn't, 72 00:09:44,149 --> 00:09:50,200 you know, not a whole lot has changed. Not a whole lot has changed in this room even so... 73 00:09:50,200 --> 00:09:53,759 Well, actually, a lot has changed in this room. It probably doesn't look very differ... 74 00:09:53,759 --> 00:10:00,259 But everything, like, I just, so on Tuesday night, I didn't do a show because I though... 75 00:10:00,259 --> 00:10:06,340 literally years of praying for this, for praying for exactly what I was getting on... 76 00:10:06,720 --> 00:10:13,539 uh, I think it would be kind of silly, uh, to go, you know what, but I had different pla... 77 00:10:13,539 --> 00:10:20,090 I didn't want to, I actually did, but it'd probably be a lot like this, but I was lik... 78 00:10:20,090 --> 00:10:26,620 not gonna do that, I don't want to be, I don't want to be rude, accidental rudeness... 79 00:10:26,620 --> 00:10:33,259 , that's, it's not my style, you know, Or if it is, not to God Almighty, please. 80 00:10:33,259 --> 00:10:40,190 Anyways, so TLDR. I don't know exactly what it's going to look like just yet, but I... 81 00:10:40,190 --> 00:10:47,029 that the path forward for me for the time being is to both literally 82 00:10:47,029 --> 00:10:53,779 and figuratively wash away, basically the last two years, it feels like 83 00:10:53,779 --> 00:10:58,080 , of just like a thin layer of just meh on everything. 84 00:10:58,080 --> 00:11:04,580 You know? It's like, if you look at it kind of from a far away and you kind of squint ... 85 00:11:04,580 --> 00:11:08,799 in your eyes, it all looks alright. But you start looking a little closer, you're like... 86 00:11:08,799 --> 00:11:15,080 Oh, Lord. So, yeah. And that feels so good. 87 00:11:15,080 --> 00:11:21,659 And by the by, if you're someone who, you know, if this, say heck yeah in the chat, ... 88 00:11:21,659 --> 00:11:28,299 resonates with you, If you're someone who has kind of let things pile up beyond, you know, 89 00:11:28,299 --> 00:11:35,059 the point of recognition and, you know, corners and you start getting in there, it... 90 00:11:35,059 --> 00:11:42,419 Like, it's not even like a. I would feel guilty, but the mistake has already been... 91 00:11:42,419 --> 00:11:46,960 You know, I'm not going to keep on hanging on to it just because it took me years and ye... 92 00:11:47,720 --> 00:11:54,259 uh oh man it's just it's just been such a good couple days on the on the on the sad... 93 00:11:54,259 --> 00:12:00,879 negative side sorry not to open up the show with talking about myself but you know... 94 00:12:00,879 --> 00:12:07,679 i can do what i want i've alienated basically everyone who in good faith started watchin... 95 00:12:07,679 --> 00:12:14,179 here i've done so much to really uh i think squander is such a wonderful thing that uh... 96 00:12:14,179 --> 00:12:20,909 for me out of fear i don't know uh just out of something uh not wanting to make the wrong 97 00:12:20,909 --> 00:12:27,549 move so not making any move at all which is you know fundamentally self-defeating so 98 00:12:27,549 --> 00:12:34,049 um i don't know exactly what you know the show exactly is say exactly one more time uh 99 00:12:34,049 --> 00:12:40,820 i don't know what it's all gonna look like but again i think for me you know that uh the 100 00:12:40,820 --> 00:12:47,529 heat map of like a leftist brain where you know they're trying to apply care and 101 00:12:47,529 --> 00:12:54,370 consideration to abstractions of abstractions but their own kind of core uh family 102 00:12:54,370 --> 00:13:02,009 and community are completely left the wayside well i'm gonna put myself which i think th... 103 00:13:02,009 --> 00:13:09,070 that is uh the center i'm the center of my own universe the world is an oyster and i'... 104 00:13:09,070 --> 00:13:15,820 dadgummit and not even one of those ugly ones it's it's just it's little 105 00:13:15,820 --> 00:13:23,289 um that's all right uh what are you talking about uh i don't know what it's all gonna... 106 00:13:23,289 --> 00:13:30,210 from the bottom of my heart i know that if i don't reset it's the great 107 00:13:30,210 --> 00:13:36,840 reset okay claude schwab was like hey listen uh i can't even do the accent 108 00:13:36,840 --> 00:13:43,509 i wish i could but i don't have that talent um but you know you're going to you're goi... 109 00:13:43,509 --> 00:13:50,259 're going to reset your whole it's terrible uh just start fresh and uh so far 110 00:13:50,259 --> 00:13:57,240 i mean i'm there's still so much to do but i've done so much but uh it's it's been ni... 111 00:13:57,240 --> 00:14:03,840 cat is like very confused so confused so much stuff has like moved around and been removed 112 00:14:03,840 --> 00:14:10,460 entirely from uh the house and it's like what wait that was my favorite box that's been... 113 00:14:10,460 --> 00:14:17,399 a year and a half what are you doing with that dumpster sorry it's in the dumpster n... 114 00:14:17,399 --> 00:14:23,960 um but she's around here she also has been thrilled because i moved her pillow over l... 115 00:14:23,960 --> 00:14:30,590 updates of my life okay it's like the sands through the hourglass so are the times of... 116 00:14:30,590 --> 00:14:37,120 i moved her pillow over and she likes the new spot so that's exciting we're big fans of... 117 00:14:37,120 --> 00:14:44,070 new kind of cat food for her um she's liking that too which is actually kind of shockin... 118 00:14:44,070 --> 00:14:50,600 feast it's not even fancy for real but cats get picky sometimes and she but she i don 119 00:14:50,600 --> 00:14:57,110 't even know what it's called it's not fancy either but it's just different we're doing... 120 00:14:57,110 --> 00:15:03,690 changed and yet nothing whatsoever but it's even brighter in here i don't have the lig... 121 00:15:03,690 --> 00:15:10,909 down into a in cave mode all day long miraculously enough which is usually here'... 122 00:15:10,909 --> 00:15:17,710 is truly fundamentally in my core shifting uh it's like muscle memory for me to just kin... 123 00:15:17,710 --> 00:15:24,210 in my hunker down and pray for daylight kind of a you know formation and i would do tha... 124 00:15:24,210 --> 00:15:30,889 guess muscle memory habit or whatever and i would find myself getting back up again to... 125 00:15:30,889 --> 00:15:37,549 , no, but I got to go do that. That, my friends, I know this seems so small, but... 126 00:15:37,549 --> 00:15:45,090 've ever really struggled with, that's everything. That is everything and more. 127 00:15:45,090 --> 00:15:51,600 So I don't know. I don't know. And there's been a lot of things that I've 128 00:15:51,600 --> 00:15:58,320 been trying to pinpoint what the core root of this is ultimately i think it's a culminat... 129 00:15:58,320 --> 00:16:04,929 things pretty fundamental life events you know uh thinking okay well you've been... 130 00:16:04,929 --> 00:16:11,460 change anything nothing bad and your whole family will ever happen ever again that's ... 131 00:16:11,460 --> 00:16:18,269 lie it's like a bargaining system set up by the crazy person in your brain uh and just... 132 00:16:18,269 --> 00:16:25,000 i i truly at the time did not uh this is going back to hearkening back to maiden gate 133 00:16:25,000 --> 00:16:31,679 era uh i did not really even take the time to assess what that actually did to just kind 134 00:16:31,679 --> 00:16:38,509 of my just overall mood uh the constant targeting the constant uh 135 00:16:38,509 --> 00:16:45,700 threats to my family like not like they're gonna come kill us but like they're like... 136 00:16:45,700 --> 00:16:52,419 like hey by the way like excuse me tell their employers they have a crazy daughter 137 00:16:52,419 --> 00:16:59,340 yeah so does everyone get in line uh but you know what i mean like that it it is just k... 138 00:16:59,340 --> 00:17:06,000 pernicious presence uh and i didn't like even though there was not a whole 139 00:17:06,000 --> 00:17:12,700 lot i could do about it aside from quote tweet them and call them retards until i g... 140 00:17:12,700 --> 00:17:19,980 just acknowledging that it was actually i didn't i didn't want to let them see me... 141 00:17:19,980 --> 00:17:26,609 when it's all up here nobody can see anyways so i never really acknowledged how much... 142 00:17:26,609 --> 00:17:33,359 banned sucked uh i had like just i'd been let go from my job and i was like i'm gonna ta... 143 00:17:33,359 --> 00:17:39,980 gonna do it i'm gonna do it things are gonna be fine i've you know all this momentum an... 144 00:17:39,980 --> 00:17:46,609 ultimately again i think it was the best thing that could have ever happened to me ... 145 00:17:46,609 --> 00:17:53,119 chat earlier by the way i got to you know so many incredible people on gab i also got... 146 00:17:53,119 --> 00:17:59,700 right extremism in its most potent form which it turns out i'm largely a big fan of 147 00:17:59,700 --> 00:18:06,299 oops um and made some have made some of the greatest you know friends i don't i don't ... 148 00:18:06,299 --> 00:18:12,869 life is life is long and the years are short or years are long life should whatever the... 149 00:18:12,869 --> 00:18:19,609 we've been going five years strong uh you know my federal contract to be a fed 150 00:18:19,609 --> 00:18:26,480 on the internet sorry get in there don't bother me everyone was when uh they 151 00:18:26,480 --> 00:18:33,099 defunded all of those uh big NGO contracts were like oh no Elle's gonna have to go ba... 152 00:18:33,099 --> 00:18:39,690 know a desk somewhere in DC no no rest assured I'm still an agent in the field so... 153 00:18:39,690 --> 00:18:46,309 being a fed psyop online is lifelong uh and also fake and gay and i made that up becau... 154 00:18:46,309 --> 00:18:52,960 's not even funny really like the delivery could have been much better but uh i... 155 00:18:52,960 --> 00:18:59,470 people had but like about me initially like who the hell is this person but anyways i'... 156 00:18:59,470 --> 00:19:06,240 it i don't know what that's gonna look like i don't know what again shape it's gonna tak... 157 00:19:06,240 --> 00:19:12,799 in terms of just potential uh and inertia is everything so i would 158 00:19:12,799 --> 00:19:19,410 like to thank all of you for uh your patience with me over the last several years while 159 00:19:19,410 --> 00:19:26,440 i've just kind of been very cerebral but not very productive with 160 00:19:26,440 --> 00:19:33,019 it uh and tried to i don't know buckle you know buck up buttercup get tough rub some 161 00:19:33,019 --> 00:19:39,730 dirt in it i'm actually not very tough it turns out i don't know if that's a big sho... 162 00:19:39,730 --> 00:19:46,329 grit in my heart like if if there's like a big apocalypse you know there's like ones... 163 00:19:46,329 --> 00:19:52,869 front there's zombies or monsters eating every like i will die uh which is why this... 164 00:19:52,869 --> 00:19:59,519 called deer and headlight social deria i am a freeze in place and see it through whether... 165 00:19:59,519 --> 00:20:06,140 like you know looking at it in hindsight or uh in you know in preparation for something 166 00:20:06,140 --> 00:20:12,700 ultimately that might not be ideal but that's it tends to be the way i go about it so i'... 167 00:20:12,700 --> 00:20:19,390 one who just kind of said there's like ah well i probably wouldn't even have a thoug... 168 00:20:19,390 --> 00:20:25,900 you rather have a gay son or a thought daughter, I would rather have a thought th... 169 00:20:25,900 --> 00:20:32,410 save your own ass, but I don't have that, so anyways, um, I don't really know if you ca... 170 00:20:32,410 --> 00:20:39,240 of your brain, I think some of that's pretty genetic, trigger warning, um, that's pretty 171 00:20:39,240 --> 00:20:46,000 fun, so otherwise, I don't, I really have not been paying attention again, uh, over the... 172 00:20:46,000 --> 00:20:52,630 , um, I, I was kind of feeling, I was feeling the winds of change blowing, and I have be... 173 00:20:52,630 --> 00:20:59,339 uh when I was with Papa L after surgery and all and again not to the man can't help it... 174 00:20:59,339 --> 00:21:05,940 recovering uh from surgery again I didn't it wasn't even my surgery it's just it took a... 175 00:21:05,940 --> 00:21:12,680 out of us and uh my sleep schedule got super messed up for a while and I slept for like... 176 00:21:12,680 --> 00:21:19,500 I didn't realize how I've never had a child you know i'll say yet potentially um but 177 00:21:19,500 --> 00:21:26,049 i felt like that was probably about as close to having that experience for 178 00:21:26,049 --> 00:21:32,750 myself as i've gotten so far of sitting up and and we i just slept in the chair next ... 179 00:21:32,750 --> 00:21:39,339 we were each in our own chairs i'm like spooning my dad i would though i love my d... 180 00:21:39,339 --> 00:21:45,960 if he you know something happened it's me i'm the i'm the first and last 181 00:21:45,960 --> 00:21:52,940 line of defense so uh actually it just that's that's a lot no pressure 182 00:21:52,940 --> 00:21:59,910 but you know it's probably gonna be fine but what if sorry dad i froze 183 00:21:59,910 --> 00:22:06,720 and bled out on the carpet but no my dad is fine everything was best case scenario i w... 184 00:22:06,720 --> 00:22:13,890 uh and then so lo and behold surprisingly enough in the midst of being tired and to... 185 00:22:13,890 --> 00:22:20,430 black um suffragette hillary clinton i don't feel no way's time uh i come so 186 00:22:20,430 --> 00:22:27,200 you know what that is really me at the end of the day i am just like 187 00:22:27,200 --> 00:22:33,970 a black feminist leader hillary clinton that day at that church with her hot sauce 188 00:22:33,970 --> 00:22:40,599 in her purse not feeling no ways tired i don't know who she is i know it's like a p... 189 00:22:40,599 --> 00:22:47,349 i know it's not her thing but whatever it's a shitty joke that i wrote in my head two... 190 00:22:47,349 --> 00:22:54,000 it out on you so try it see what you think about it we can workshop it all right hey ... 191 00:22:54,000 --> 00:23:00,529 content no but honestly that's a good question though crackalactica also thank y... 192 00:23:00,529 --> 00:23:07,039 ny let me uh let me look over at chat for a second uh thorny thanks for the 50 bucks... 193 00:23:07,039 --> 00:23:13,769 i am thorny and it's with great authority um and you know as the you know dictator of t... 194 00:23:13,769 --> 00:23:20,630 and cult um i hereby dub i am thorny the official thorny of nasc 195 00:23:20,630 --> 00:23:27,210 ar oh also if if the last like couple days of just really having to scrub basically... 196 00:23:27,210 --> 00:23:33,819 's getting late this stream is not sponsored by but it should be uh dawn power wash i... 197 00:23:33,819 --> 00:23:40,599 if you're supposed to wash every surface in your house with it but damn that shit is... 198 00:23:40,599 --> 00:23:47,339 it oh man wall whatever surface whatever it works it works better than just about 199 00:23:47,339 --> 00:23:53,859 anything else and it's also not like the kind of stuff that makes you feel like you're... 200 00:23:53,859 --> 00:24:00,579 between baking soda peroxide and dawn power wash i don't think anything could stop me ... 201 00:24:00,579 --> 00:24:07,160 don't think it can uh aside from i did little cat again i've been moving her cheese it 202 00:24:07,160 --> 00:24:13,819 's my fault but she has dove right in front of my feet several times over the last 203 00:24:13,819 --> 00:24:20,440 day or two um and one of my like i almost ate shit on the corner of my like like solid w... 204 00:24:20,440 --> 00:24:26,940 have been fun and probably like a multi-thousand dollar dentist bill but it... 205 00:24:26,940 --> 00:24:33,819 't had potential didn't follow through so that was good but little cat shout out lit... 206 00:24:33,819 --> 00:24:40,509 little scamp uh i guess you can't really see anyway the 207 00:24:40,509 --> 00:24:47,349 not all the shelves are different just yet but look at uh everything's been like 208 00:24:47,349 --> 00:24:53,930 scrubbed down slightly right and now we got a bucky back there all right you got my... 209 00:24:53,930 --> 00:25:00,670 that's a little it's kind of it's a little out of focus that's from chris and claire ... 210 00:25:00,670 --> 00:25:07,380 like my childhood um it's it's a magic eight ball but it's pink and it's got sparkles o... 211 00:25:07,380 --> 00:25:14,140 30 years uh and then a clock that doesn't work my trophies both from jbsx my little ... 212 00:25:14,140 --> 00:25:20,769 nothing's moved around but it's all been scrubbed down um i gotta carry i have so m... 213 00:25:20,769 --> 00:25:27,490 it is but like i know that i am a hoarder of like digital for sure uh but there's... 214 00:25:27,490 --> 00:25:34,180 paper materials in in that i just i really have a hard time letting go of and i gotta... 215 00:25:34,180 --> 00:25:40,809 shitty magazines on like that aren't even ones that one day i'll be like oh i'm glad... 216 00:25:40,809 --> 00:25:47,329 uh for the longest time was delivered here that i didn't have a subscription to but i... 217 00:25:47,329 --> 00:25:54,089 here since 2019 and that came through like 2023 so shout out to the previous tenant 218 00:25:54,089 --> 00:26:00,660 um uh but anyways i don't know uh crack galactica 219 00:26:00,660 --> 00:26:07,299 said this is where the kick-ass black metal band Bathory got its name. 220 00:26:07,299 --> 00:26:14,259 Bathory? That sounds like something... That sounds like something that a, like 221 00:26:14,259 --> 00:26:21,130 , a black person would name their child, that, like, sounds almost, like... 222 00:26:21,130 --> 00:26:27,160 If you've ever seen the movie Mean Girls, I think one of the funniest things that the... 223 00:26:27,160 --> 00:26:34,009 Duvall says is, he's, like, talks about, uh, his sister naming her son anthony instead ... 224 00:26:34,009 --> 00:26:40,509 ony so anyways uh not to be racist but it's true right it happens it's a trope it's... 225 00:26:40,509 --> 00:26:47,259 that or like something like darnell john quavius williams the third esquire 226 00:26:47,259 --> 00:26:53,880 maybe you never know or it's the key and p scale key and peel sketch where they're 227 00:26:53,880 --> 00:27:00,549 the football names which is that's a classic uh anyways let me get the chats i mean they 228 00:27:00,549 --> 00:27:07,279 're all pulled up but again let me get them organized here i was trying to like not sa... 229 00:27:07,279 --> 00:27:13,859 know but it is like could i get if you met like a 6-4 linebacker named bathory you'd ... 230 00:27:13,859 --> 00:27:20,440 right mama didn't care if you you're gonna be a football it didn't matter didn't matter... 231 00:27:20,440 --> 00:27:27,089 edith that terror tricks uh sweet for the legs little cat oh no she has well she doe... 232 00:27:27,089 --> 00:27:33,720 do this or some cats do this she'll go like she'll hide behind a chair imagine me walking 233 00:27:33,720 --> 00:27:40,349 down this is me walking down the you know hall the main corridor 234 00:27:40,349 --> 00:27:47,240 and uh she will kind of get behind like the counter or behind the uh corner the back... 235 00:27:47,240 --> 00:27:53,759 of like the recliner and she'll poke her head out i know she's there and i know that she... 236 00:27:53,759 --> 00:28:00,339 then she'll take off sprinting and run ahead of me and then uh you know it's just fun i... 237 00:28:00,339 --> 00:28:06,900 she's attacking she's hunting me i guess i don't know but every now and then uh cats 238 00:28:06,900 --> 00:28:13,569 like to do this thing where they'll just flop over and it means love me right now damn i... 239 00:28:13,569 --> 00:28:20,119 're like you know it's not like dead but possum-y um they'll show you the belly that 240 00:28:20,119 --> 00:28:26,799 if you pet you'll die uh but she'll just like flop over right in front of my like moving 241 00:28:26,799 --> 00:28:33,529 feet which i'm already not a terribly graceful person i'm not like i've fallen a... 242 00:28:33,529 --> 00:28:40,039 to my hip is like the exact same height as most countertops and i will catch the corn... 243 00:28:40,039 --> 00:28:46,750 everything all the time with like my hip or my shoulder or whatever i just basic spatial 244 00:28:46,750 --> 00:28:53,490 reasoning is you know it's a it's a it's an art and it's one that i'm not very good at... 245 00:28:53,490 --> 00:29:00,009 in my finger paints banging my hip on the random corner of my desk and stuff so... 246 00:29:00,009 --> 00:29:06,859 flopping dive in front of my feet i'm not looking of my feet i'm like staring off in... 247 00:29:06,859 --> 00:29:13,599 lord knows what um today it was who are the dutch because i couldn't remember and i ma... 248 00:29:13,599 --> 00:29:20,180 it on the twitters uh who are the dutch even the netherlands uh and then i was like i i 249 00:29:20,180 --> 00:29:26,789 said which i don't care okay i'm not i'm not dutch i'm not hollish but it's like 250 00:29:26,789 --> 00:29:33,490 netherlands dutch the dutch or holland or like all kind of used somewhat interchange 251 00:29:33,490 --> 00:29:40,200 ably even though they're not one-to-one interchangeable realistically um and boy... 252 00:29:40,200 --> 00:29:46,859 centric fools get in my comments and like i'm actually so i don't i mean i care but like... 253 00:29:46,859 --> 00:29:53,619 't care about your opinion about my thoughts on the netherlands i'm sure i would enjoy ... 254 00:29:53,619 --> 00:29:59,079 country lovely people i'm assuming probably i I still remember that, like, um... 255 00:29:59,079 --> 00:30:06,079 I think that was actually... Thin. Do y'all remember that lady? 256 00:30:06,079 --> 00:30:11,960 I know, it's so specific. I think it was AstraZeneca. 257 00:30:11,960 --> 00:30:18,680 It's like this very, like, you know, Nordic, hot, blonde lady 258 00:30:18,680 --> 00:30:25,210 wrote an article about it would be an honor to die from AstraZeneca 259 00:30:25,319 --> 00:30:32,089 to help the, you know, the greater world. good of humanity uh what am i what am 260 00:30:32,089 --> 00:30:38,690 i talking about i just whenever i think about any of those like um that i can't even i i... 261 00:30:38,690 --> 00:30:45,220 the accent i wish i could i gotta practice that one uh i kind of 262 00:30:45,220 --> 00:30:52,220 just lump them all together and she's y'all's cult leader whether or not you accept it o... 263 00:30:52,349 --> 00:30:58,920 and she's like if you don't take this vaccine and die for astrazeneca you're not a true 264 00:30:59,160 --> 00:31:05,690 niederlands uh enjoyer i remember that i know i have in my archive somewhere but 265 00:31:05,690 --> 00:31:12,200 i don't want to i'm gonna say i don't want to get off track again i not really paid... 266 00:31:12,200 --> 00:31:18,920 monitoring the situation right um sort of but realistically i just again when you have 267 00:31:18,920 --> 00:31:25,509 a prayer the very prayer you've been praying uh for two years has been answered 268 00:31:25,690 --> 00:31:32,440 i think that it's it's it's best to move forward in that rather than uh you know sit 269 00:31:32,470 --> 00:31:38,970 down and the the twitter social the the moment to moment chronically online hot 270 00:31:39,200 --> 00:31:45,700 takes will always be there you know and i think that's a beautiful thing and it's... 271 00:31:46,170 --> 00:31:52,720 watched like half of salty crackers stream from yesterday so i'm that's basically caught 272 00:31:52,720 --> 00:31:59,329 up right um but anyways let me say hi to everyone in the chat real quick because i ... 273 00:31:59,329 --> 00:32:05,859 you know like it's just i don't know what it's gonna i don't know what's happening b... 274 00:32:05,859 --> 00:32:12,400 's better than i can possibly say uh it made me think of when i first started putting... 275 00:32:12,400 --> 00:32:19,140 all of the work i've done on this and all of the like developing of the like the... 276 00:32:19,140 --> 00:32:26,980 and the the concept the conceptualization of becoming sentient uh and i'm like and i ha... 277 00:32:27,369 --> 00:32:33,930 flown in the face of my own you know i mean years of work that i'd put into that um... 278 00:32:33,930 --> 00:32:40,519 's still there so i can delete it or anything like that uh we gotta keep the journey... 279 00:32:40,519 --> 00:32:47,210 all right we're going to throw the ring into the mountain in Mordor, okay? 280 00:32:47,210 --> 00:32:51,650 Some of you may die, but ultimately, I'm gonna make it. 281 00:32:51,650 --> 00:32:58,269 Probably. Uh, hello to my Odyssey friends. Sorry, I sang at you just now. 282 00:32:58,269 --> 00:33:02,029 Darnie! Turn off your bright lady. No! 283 00:33:02,029 --> 00:33:07,230 All right? Also, okay, I've told you all about this before. 284 00:33:07,230 --> 00:33:12,400 One of these days, I'll show you. Um, there's a lamp sitting right here. 285 00:33:12,410 --> 00:33:19,309 I've got, I've got a lighting system in here that is truly, it's very sophisticated uh... 286 00:33:19,309 --> 00:33:26,269 behind the chair to give that like the back lighting the ambiance right uh there 287 00:33:26,369 --> 00:33:33,250 is a lamp to my left joker's to the right here i am stuck in the middle with you... 288 00:33:33,380 --> 00:33:39,920 light behind me uh behind you if you were actually here um i guess you can see the... 289 00:33:39,920 --> 00:33:46,420 my uh glasses um but so this light to the left is i like it actually it 290 00:33:46,420 --> 00:33:52,930 's like a it's i got it's one of those like vintage like the lights you would 291 00:33:52,930 --> 00:33:59,549 see in banks uh i don't know what era but i got it at a thrift store i love it but the... 292 00:33:59,549 --> 00:34:06,089 's very bright and it's got like this kind of translucent um like frost 293 00:34:06,089 --> 00:34:12,750 ed glass dome over it uh it's very unforgiving lighting 294 00:34:12,750 --> 00:34:19,909 but i like it okay um i had previously and had left there for two years uh i'd... 295 00:34:19,909 --> 00:34:26,750 taped a piece of computer paper over the top of that like curved dome uh just to kind o... 296 00:34:26,750 --> 00:34:33,369 a little bit but ultimately when this is not on here it's just I don't know. 297 00:34:33,369 --> 00:34:39,900 I like having that little extra light. But what I did yesterday, um, is I 298 00:34:39,900 --> 00:34:45,039 actually got a piece of, uh, slightly green paper. 299 00:34:45,039 --> 00:34:52,489 Okay, it's not that sophisticated, all right? There's a lamp from Walmart on the ground... 300 00:34:52,739 --> 00:34:59,369 There is a light here that JBSX bought me. I don't know what brand it is my camera is... 301 00:34:59,369 --> 00:35:06,300 say hogtied ziptied uh to the stand because the stand is not the one that's made for t... 302 00:35:06,300 --> 00:35:13,130 but you know what that the hogtie the ziptie has been holding strong for like i don't k... 303 00:35:13,130 --> 00:35:19,829 three years now so whatever uh but i took a little a slightly green sheet of paper 304 00:35:19,829 --> 00:35:26,480 i have so much like crafting paper i have so many crafts that have lived and died and... 305 00:35:26,630 --> 00:35:33,190 to you is that once i'm done getting everything i will um i promised so many ti... 306 00:35:33,199 --> 00:35:39,889 's right off screen you can't see it but right over there there's a one two three f... 307 00:35:39,900 --> 00:35:46,460 tall floor to ceiling like it's just like one of those like pvc shelves from uh home dep... 308 00:35:46,710 --> 00:35:53,380 that is just laden laden down with so many creative projects of mine uh that 309 00:35:53,440 --> 00:35:59,940 started off with the best of intentions and or absolutely belligerently foolhardy and 310 00:35:59,940 --> 00:36:06,469 blind belief that i could just do whatever you know oh i can do that i'm naturally go... 311 00:36:06,469 --> 00:36:13,050 'm actually not uh and just sheer delusion that i can duplicate something without hav... 312 00:36:13,050 --> 00:36:19,699 ed any sort of skill whatsoever there is it's just it's it's a it's a cemetery uh of my ... 313 00:36:19,699 --> 00:36:26,260 and it's kind of funny ultimately um but i have so much crafting paper so i took 314 00:36:26,260 --> 00:36:33,119 this piece of uh slightly green crafting paper because i myself am a slightly pinki... 315 00:36:33,119 --> 00:36:39,869 plish tinted person you know they're like oh you're just a white lady no no no all righ... 316 00:36:40,130 --> 00:36:46,849 sometimes it's like it's like a deep plum purple which is weird right i look like th... 317 00:36:46,900 --> 00:36:52,320 from uh Willy Wonka after I chewed the chewing gum, right? 318 00:36:52,320 --> 00:36:55,699 Anyways, whatever, you know, violet, you're turning violet. 319 00:36:56,099 --> 00:37:02,800 Sometimes white people are actually like purple. Uh, so that is slightly green, whi... 320 00:37:02,940 --> 00:37:10,079 red tones, which should overall balance out my complexion without having to really do... 321 00:37:10,210 --> 00:37:16,329 Okay. So yeah, it's a slightly green piece of paper now, as opposed to just regular old... 322 00:37:16,489 --> 00:37:20,050 I think that's pretty smart, actually. Color theory, bitch, look it up. 323 00:37:20,340 --> 00:37:26,849 So I got lamp on the floor right there, light right there, lamp with piece of green-ish 324 00:37:27,139 --> 00:37:33,530 paper taped over it so that it's slightly filtered and not quite so, you know, bright. 325 00:37:33,760 --> 00:37:39,599 So it's a pretty sophisticated setup, I would say, ultimately. 326 00:37:39,650 --> 00:37:45,159 I think that if you want to learn how to be a professional, You gotta really, you gotta ... 327 00:37:45,260 --> 00:37:49,280 You gotta get your zip ties. You gotta get your pieces of paper and your tape. 328 00:37:49,380 --> 00:37:53,139 Actually, it's binder clipped to the, uh... 329 00:37:53,179 --> 00:37:57,030 I do love a good, I love a good binder clip, don't you? I love them bitches. 330 00:37:57,199 --> 00:38:00,679 Why is he talking about my lamps? Oh yeah, he said turn down my brightness. No! 331 00:38:01,710 --> 00:38:10,159 How about that? How about them apples? Uh, sorry, that was just a social theory. 332 00:38:10,260 --> 00:38:16,820 Darty says, oof, deer in headlights describes my social life. what is a social life i've... 333 00:38:16,820 --> 00:38:23,610 mom and you know what i like them a lot so there we go the winds of change are a blow... 334 00:38:23,610 --> 00:38:30,539 you said you weren't gonna tell anyone i had to go get some grape juice says ann pumice 335 00:38:30,539 --> 00:38:37,139 's white or purple is it purple grape oh man ultimately it 336 00:38:37,780 --> 00:38:45,260 always makes stomach hurt but white grape juice is oh good it's different every 337 00:38:45,260 --> 00:38:51,840 now and then retreating into your own soul is not self-defeating well it kind of felt li... 338 00:38:51,840 --> 00:38:58,829 the whole idea of retreating is you gotta you gotta do a tactical retreat sometimes to m... 339 00:38:58,829 --> 00:39:05,590 forward and it's just i guess decision paralysis uh i got real big for my britch 340 00:39:05,590 --> 00:39:12,280 es back in 2020 when you know gained a little platform didn't actually know anything 341 00:39:12,280 --> 00:39:19,570 but i once again had got it all figured out after making a couple different like you k... 342 00:39:19,570 --> 00:39:26,250 i do i don't want to ever uh just get something so stupidly 343 00:39:26,519 --> 00:39:33,210 wrong that could have just been with like a you know a little bit more learning a litt... 344 00:39:33,329 --> 00:39:39,880 so right uh but realistically speaking no one gives a shit anymore about their own uh yo... 345 00:39:40,320 --> 00:39:46,900 standing about being accurate it's glenn kessler uh former fact check 346 00:39:46,900 --> 00:39:53,599 er uh in residence of the of the washington post they posted like uh they these articl... 347 00:39:53,699 --> 00:40:00,260 coming out is about basically oopsie i can't believe we got that wrong that's crazy rig... 348 00:40:00,449 --> 00:40:07,139 covid stuff i used to keep and actually this is another thing too as i was looking back... 349 00:40:07,139 --> 00:40:13,739 earlier of like my initial like info tracking like i forgot what this is all about i was... 350 00:40:13,739 --> 00:40:20,639 it to you in just a second but glenn kessler who again his official title his official ... 351 00:40:20,639 --> 00:40:27,219 for the washington post which used to be a respected institution once upon a time i... 352 00:40:27,219 --> 00:40:34,039 was to fact check and no one has ever been well okay this is hyperbolic but i feel that 353 00:40:34,039 --> 00:40:40,590 as far as washington post fact checkers slash snarky like closeted gay men go at the was 354 00:40:40,590 --> 00:40:47,190 hington post glenn kessler is so belligerently and confidently fucking wron... 355 00:40:47,190 --> 00:40:53,789 much all the time uh and if that can be his job title and he's like that then i can yo... 356 00:40:53,789 --> 00:41:00,449 maybe i didn't actually know everything yet but we're still learning that's the whole... 357 00:41:00,530 --> 00:41:07,039 you move forward you learn more you change your mind you talk about it i don't know s... 358 00:41:07,039 --> 00:41:14,130 've never been actually afraid of like getting something wrong but again after a... 359 00:41:14,130 --> 00:41:20,820 of things after maiden i wish i would have handled that differently I wish I would ha... 360 00:41:20,849 --> 00:41:27,659 so many different things differently and if I'm gonna bring a target on my back 361 00:41:27,800 --> 00:41:34,389 ever again a plan on it, mind you a plan on, you know, being a thorn on people's sides ... 362 00:41:34,389 --> 00:41:41,239 of my life and hopefully beyond not like into like a, you know, AI sorry 363 00:41:41,510 --> 00:41:48,679 , I'm sure y'all saw that Joaquin whatever, kid who died 364 00:41:48,780 --> 00:41:55,289 in parkland uh his parents have been recreating an ai avatar of him since like... 365 00:41:55,289 --> 00:42:01,849 which is and his dad does like the stage play where he cuts out a picture of like he cut... 366 00:42:01,849 --> 00:42:08,409 son's face like cuts eye holes in it and like wears it on his it's very bizarre very... 367 00:42:08,409 --> 00:42:15,070 sometimes it's it's a very weird trope but it happens more often than 368 00:42:15,070 --> 00:42:21,590 not parents of children who have died in like a mass shooting you 369 00:42:21,590 --> 00:42:28,210 'll find parents who seemingly love having a kid who was shot and killed more than they... 370 00:42:28,210 --> 00:42:34,980 having a kid and it like it something possesses them in a way that in anyways i... 371 00:42:34,980 --> 00:42:41,809 families got some of that going on uh i can think of like four or five different 372 00:42:41,809 --> 00:42:48,880 moms off the top of my head that do this like their whole personality is about them and... 373 00:42:48,989 --> 00:42:55,670 if you if you lose a kid i think that it's important to talk about it for other you k... 374 00:42:55,670 --> 00:43:02,440 grief and and the most unthinkable loss but it's not about that even i'm sorry if you ... 375 00:43:02,440 --> 00:43:09,150 your initial thought is how can i use this to enact legislation go fuck yourself how abo... 376 00:43:09,150 --> 00:43:15,760 about that um i'm sorry your kid got shot i truly am from the bottom of my heart 377 00:43:15,760 --> 00:43:22,340 i wish i wish it were different uh but not even dead and buried and you're you know w... 378 00:43:22,340 --> 00:43:28,920 introduced a blah blah blah act fuck you i'm no sympathy i mean i do have sympathy for... 379 00:43:29,019 --> 00:43:36,210 you had a hell of an upbringing uh but not you crazy people uh fuck what was i i'm... 380 00:43:36,210 --> 00:43:42,909 off in the weeds i just got so much to say i'm glad you're having some grape juice... 381 00:43:42,940 --> 00:43:49,519 pile up no take your trash out and put tactical trash cans around the house i did... 382 00:43:49,519 --> 00:43:56,519 lives we've only had a nickel a storm is coming welch is purple i like the white grape 383 00:43:56,519 --> 00:44:03,210 it's got to be white all right i'm a racist l plum the newest crayon color if you are 384 00:44:03,210 --> 00:44:09,960 there so there's a i don't know what the basically every you you might be like an... 385 00:44:09,960 --> 00:44:16,480 a summer or a winter whatever but if you're if you tend to be of like asian descent yo... 386 00:44:16,630 --> 00:44:23,349 ish undertones uh if you're from like the african continent it's the deep rich brown... 387 00:44:23,349 --> 00:44:29,860 purplish um too but like it's very like you know it's a little different than my 388 00:44:29,860 --> 00:44:36,440 own uh pigment uh but for some of us flats you can just kind of see like it's 389 00:44:36,699 --> 00:44:43,420 just purple just it'd be like that sometimes uh especially i used to not understand that 390 00:44:43,420 --> 00:44:50,159 it was my sciatic nerve which is like it's like one that sits in your hip but if i wo... 391 00:44:50,550 --> 00:44:57,239 pinched and then my legs would get all tingly i'd stand up and my feet would turn like... 392 00:44:57,340 --> 00:45:04,000 always it's like you know you can never do you can never be embarrassed or drunk or... 393 00:45:04,050 --> 00:45:10,630 when you have this kind of uh i guess undertone because everyone's about to know... 394 00:45:10,630 --> 00:45:17,210 glue you can binder clip a green piece of paper to your lamp for a slightly better... 395 00:45:17,210 --> 00:45:23,750 stream if that's something that is interesting to you man with the lights up... 396 00:45:23,750 --> 00:45:30,360 but i gotta get a new chair that'll be maybe that'll be my reward the real reward actua... 397 00:45:30,360 --> 00:45:37,059 just be in a functioning house again but no i'll get a new character or i'll recover 398 00:45:37,059 --> 00:45:43,719 this headrest anyways i don't know what i'm i don't know what i'm talking i'm just i... 399 00:45:43,719 --> 00:45:50,320 just feel happy i feel like and not i just feel like there's so much potential where... 400 00:45:50,539 --> 00:45:57,289 was not like i mean okay not none but just i don't know something has changed within 401 00:45:57,289 --> 00:46:04,110 me something's just not the same I don't know I had to sing that 402 00:46:04,110 --> 00:46:10,730 song um to my sorority I had like sang it in a quartet it wasn't just me but 403 00:46:10,730 --> 00:46:17,530 um and then I quit pretty soon thereafter it was during rush week they're like you I I ... 404 00:46:17,650 --> 00:46:24,760 I can carry a tune okay uh but for whatever reason that had me always volunteered 405 00:46:24,829 --> 00:46:31,480 on my behalf mind you to like sing in groups and I'm like no I don't want to sing wicke... 406 00:46:31,480 --> 00:46:38,079 people although those are fun songs to sing whatever whatever so now you 407 00:46:38,139 --> 00:46:45,329 know there's some more lore and lore i sang for good with my sorority sisters circa 408 00:46:45,329 --> 00:46:51,840 2009 and then i quit i quit after the i quit after they started trying to 409 00:46:51,840 --> 00:46:58,800 find me i stopped showing up to like not rush um rush week was actually pretty fun uh i... 410 00:46:58,800 --> 00:47:05,530 up to chapter every week i'd go like every other you know that's stuff to do or i for... 411 00:47:05,639 --> 00:47:12,309 and they'll start sending you fines and they'll like call you in front of standard... 412 00:47:12,340 --> 00:47:18,960 are you gonna find me what are you gonna find me if i don't pay the fine what are you go... 413 00:47:18,960 --> 00:47:25,570 i don't know i just there was it was it was not even actually the girls in the sororit... 414 00:47:25,650 --> 00:47:32,409 the there were some like moms that were like a little over involved and they're always... 415 00:47:32,409 --> 00:47:38,929 for they're like and i'm sure like maybe they're girl but like she's like you don't... 416 00:47:38,929 --> 00:47:45,710 showing a chapter and i'm like why sorry uh you know shedding all 417 00:47:45,780 --> 00:47:53,000 of the skin off of my face like a lizard um so anyways 418 00:47:53,050 --> 00:47:59,719 i guess if i ever do have a kid and she is a daughter and she ultimately wants 419 00:47:59,780 --> 00:48:06,440 to go to college and rush delta zeta if they look up my uh if they look up my history 420 00:48:06,440 --> 00:48:13,320 at auburn they'll see that i dropped out after i got all the t-shirts and i still w... 421 00:48:13,320 --> 00:48:20,139 uh i caught grok in a lie and he unsuccessfully tried uh to fib his way out... 422 00:48:20,239 --> 00:48:27,139 ai a synonym for a lie ai so here's there's actually something that's very interesting 423 00:48:28,170 --> 00:48:35,340 happening right now with ai in general uh i'm sure you've seen people expressing 424 00:48:35,440 --> 00:48:42,110 uh the notion that it's you know it's it's a bubble you know 425 00:48:42,110 --> 00:48:49,010 we like many things uh in in tech over over promising under delivering 426 00:48:49,010 --> 00:48:56,050 uh but simultaneously the c-suites that are super detached from the reality of their... 427 00:48:56,050 --> 00:49:02,630 their customers uh and their actual needs on the ground for their business they just se... 428 00:49:02,630 --> 00:49:09,289 revenue many like there's a ton of companies and this is one of the things that i think... 429 00:49:09,289 --> 00:49:16,719 i am maybe this is wrong but a lot of companies have invested i mean unprecedent... 430 00:49:16,719 --> 00:49:23,340 needed uh the for the processing power the actual power itself needed uh to start 431 00:49:23,440 --> 00:49:30,260 building like like building an ai factory i don't know what they make there like slop ... 432 00:49:30,469 --> 00:49:37,050 say the other day calling it AI slop is anti-semitic I was like well I guess you k... 433 00:49:37,050 --> 00:49:44,679 they're like because they say goy slop I was like I guess it is sure if you're schizophren 434 00:49:44,679 --> 00:49:51,340 ic uh just a little side note uh like what is it at this 435 00:49:51,340 --> 00:49:58,840 point um but there are a couple of different AI companies that 436 00:49:58,840 --> 00:50:05,369 have sprung up since these initial juggernauts out of Silicon Valley have kin... 437 00:50:05,369 --> 00:50:12,159 arrived on the scene that are using a complete I forget the name um as opposed 438 00:50:12,260 --> 00:50:19,530 to like hierarchical reasoning uh it's something else and it's very lightweight 439 00:50:19,530 --> 00:50:26,070 and in fact the like it could sit on a floppy disk of yore as opposed to in like a gargant 440 00:50:26,150 --> 00:50:32,750 uan fucking factory that has to like derive a new way to harness power in order for it t... 441 00:50:32,750 --> 00:50:39,550 know maintain functionality and you see i think that a lot of these bigger 442 00:50:39,550 --> 00:50:46,059 companies that have again the money's already out there it's already spent they're 443 00:50:46,059 --> 00:50:53,059 on the line with their investors they've already spent entirely too much fucking mo... 444 00:50:53,059 --> 00:50:59,599 uh ai structures rather than like a lightweight one and uh i really there's... 445 00:50:59,599 --> 00:51:06,400 happening because they don't want to admit it but there was um i forget that i don't i f... 446 00:51:06,400 --> 00:51:13,170 curious about the kind of data structures they use ultimately that lead to things 447 00:51:13,170 --> 00:51:20,460 like black founding father black female asian queer founding father images 448 00:51:20,460 --> 00:51:27,199 you know um as a like what got us here but i ultimately i'm still pretty racist against... 449 00:51:27,199 --> 00:51:33,750 ain't no one bringing a wire back home to my house all right um i guess i'm just in favor 450 00:51:33,750 --> 00:51:40,389 of team humanity but i do like to read about sam altman also a very interesting 451 00:51:40,389 --> 00:51:47,059 guy i'm sure you've probably know more about him than i do um his sister doesn't think... 452 00:51:47,190 --> 00:51:53,980 's something i read through over the last couple weeks his sister i don't know what'... 453 00:51:53,989 --> 00:52:00,519 uh you know there's your version their version and the actual truth somewhere in ... 454 00:52:00,519 --> 00:52:07,019 but his sister doesn't think much of him or the rest of the family mind you i got some... 455 00:52:07,179 --> 00:52:13,920 't i don't know i don't know what i think about him what do you think of him chat 456 00:52:13,920 --> 00:52:20,420 riddle me this what do you think of said just like just general i guess impressions sorr... 457 00:52:20,420 --> 00:52:26,940 say hi to every uh i keep saying hi to everyone this is this is the show tonight... 458 00:52:26,940 --> 00:52:33,559 it i honestly i'm already i'm feeling the call to like get up and do stuff already s... 459 00:52:33,559 --> 00:52:40,090 is gonna last because i have a i have a mandate literally from god he's like all 460 00:52:40,090 --> 00:52:47,000 right you get it you get what you want do it so again i don't i don't actually 461 00:52:47,000 --> 00:52:53,590 uh pretend to understand or pretend to know that the true intents behind things but 462 00:52:53,590 --> 00:53:00,429 i know that when when a prayer has been answered that you've been praying for two... 463 00:53:00,429 --> 00:53:07,150 don't ignore it you know so there's that long time no see welcome back yeah right 464 00:53:07,579 --> 00:53:14,199 thank you um pop yeah first of all papa l shout out to him came through his surgery... 465 00:53:14,480 --> 00:53:21,269 like a damn champion but we both underestimated uh going into it what 466 00:53:21,829 --> 00:53:28,389 recovery for him was going to look like and i i i would do it again it was not a 467 00:53:28,559 --> 00:53:35,239 burden but like ultimately i didn't realize how how much it was going to drain me I do... 468 00:53:35,239 --> 00:53:41,769 fine worth it do it again would do it tomorrow if I needed to um 469 00:53:41,880 --> 00:53:48,480 so like I think I was like oh I might I might be back on Thursday night which was the da... 470 00:53:48,579 --> 00:53:55,380 that surgery mind you he had a um I didn't talk about it before because I don't know ... 471 00:53:55,679 --> 00:54:02,179 removed uh that overall the whole thing went very well basically best best case 472 00:54:02,369 --> 00:54:08,920 outcomes in all scenarios but it's just it's an invasive surgery big scar like they rea... 473 00:54:08,920 --> 00:54:15,889 there uh to get that puppy out but it was gonna it was starting to kind of like fuck... 474 00:54:15,889 --> 00:54:22,590 and neck and all so uh you know can't have that had to get it out but it's like good... 475 00:54:22,590 --> 00:54:29,639 the official story mind you is that he got in a fight with gi jeep and G. 476 00:54:29,639 --> 00:54:36,139 I. Jeep stabbed him in the neck I guess but he lived because he's tougher he's built... 477 00:54:36,139 --> 00:54:43,239 different like my dad if anyone asks but again it's best case scenario it was not... 478 00:54:43,340 --> 00:54:50,139 it's just one of those things that like it's one of those things that you get as you ge... 479 00:54:50,210 --> 00:54:56,909 had a dog sorry that was like a lipoma but it's still scary surgery has risk 480 00:54:57,159 --> 00:55:04,539 and we both underestimated because it's outpatient you get the surgery you get to ... 481 00:55:04,639 --> 00:55:15,610 it could be worse sure but so anyways I underest 482 00:55:15,610 --> 00:55:22,300 imated the time and intensity of that again no regerts 483 00:55:22,420 --> 00:55:28,989 I enjoyed very much spending time with dad and then lo and behold I get back I do one... 484 00:55:28,989 --> 00:55:35,650 and then I'm like oh wait the winds of change are blowing yeehaw yo-ho 485 00:55:35,650 --> 00:55:42,710 motherfuckers but I think that any if I ignore this change occurring 486 00:55:42,710 --> 00:55:49,570 like some on some fundamental levels and like my brain and just 487 00:55:49,570 --> 00:55:56,230 psyche and overall outlook for life and and whatnot if i ignore this i don't know if i... 488 00:55:56,230 --> 00:56:03,940 get another shot for a while if ever uh so uh and i can objectively 489 00:56:04,039 --> 00:56:10,559 tell you that i've been not like just miserable but like i get deer 490 00:56:10,559 --> 00:56:17,110 in headlights and just kind of like oh i don't know what to do so i'm just gonna si... 491 00:56:17,110 --> 00:56:24,320 's better than nothing so i think i'll take i'll take the exit door or whatever you 492 00:56:24,320 --> 00:56:30,940 know what is it when when life shuts the door god opens a window i'll take the window th... 493 00:56:30,989 --> 00:56:37,769 you god let's go let's go let's go i'll defenestrate myself um so that felt like... 494 00:56:37,889 --> 00:56:44,590 all of the like underestimating underestimating of time which 495 00:56:44,590 --> 00:56:51,309 i'm never been known for in my life uh you know but i mean if you 496 00:56:51,309 --> 00:56:58,599 're watching this right now first of all god bless you i love you not in romantic 497 00:56:58,599 --> 00:57:05,210 way but in a way that is probably unhealthy uh if you've stuck it out thus far stick i... 498 00:57:05,210 --> 00:57:12,019 a little longer let me get my shit together let me get my shit actually together 499 00:57:12,099 --> 00:57:18,630 i think that's like the it's i've gotta i've gotta undertake the final arc of... 500 00:57:18,630 --> 00:57:25,150 uh there's like the getting your shit together in your late 20s you know with th... 501 00:57:25,150 --> 00:57:31,679 and whatnot and you kind of gotta get some things solidified before you kind of lock ... 502 00:57:31,840 --> 00:57:38,460 of like formed little habits and and whatnot and a little routine and you know life's b... 503 00:57:38,469 --> 00:57:45,199 like then there's like the ultra right wing like character arc i feel like usually lat... 504 00:57:45,199 --> 00:57:51,849 s 40s of like just getting all your shit together for real not even just surface le... 505 00:57:51,909 --> 00:57:58,429 i think i think this might be that that arc and I'm excited for it been again been... 506 00:57:58,510 --> 00:58:05,340 to come up like come on let's do it so uh I think that ultimately this will only lead to 507 00:58:05,369 --> 00:58:11,929 more extremism from my end uh and we together in our in our far right extrem 508 00:58:12,079 --> 00:58:19,039 ist cult uh will take over the galaxy I think ultimately so or you know continue 509 00:58:19,039 --> 00:58:25,610 as we all as we have before but with just me not being a sad sap 510 00:58:25,719 --> 00:58:32,369 dumb hoe anyways uh for some reason i clicked tonight so science 511 00:58:32,369 --> 00:58:38,909 daddy oh well let's see for that too i cannot usually sit still long 512 00:58:39,340 --> 00:58:46,159 enough but now i know you are gonna be just fine yeah yeah i am we are we're gonna 513 00:58:46,610 --> 00:58:53,280 make it in fact uh i was gonna be fine before but i don't want to be i don't want 514 00:58:53,340 --> 00:58:59,849 to be fine all right i won't be good i don't want good enough i don't want 515 00:58:59,849 --> 00:59:06,550 to just like i don't want to waste my time anyway oh i love that song i've been... 516 00:59:06,550 --> 00:59:13,219 to so much daft punk over the last two days too i'd like sorry dead mouse sorry sorry 517 00:59:13,219 --> 00:59:19,760 not to to cheat on my one and only uh but there's something real real nice 518 00:59:19,900 --> 00:59:26,480 for the brain listening to like discovery oh get in it so good and then like 519 00:59:26,480 --> 00:59:33,179 the guitar solo for aerodynamic kicks in for like a minute and you're just you know jus... 520 00:59:33,179 --> 00:59:39,699 ft punk sorry you broke up but big fan of your work shout out this stream is 521 00:59:39,699 --> 00:59:46,539 brought to you by daft punk and uh dawn power wash again i'm not sure you're supposed to... 522 00:59:46,570 --> 00:59:53,260 surface in your house with it uh but i do i love that shit it's great so 10 out of 10... 523 00:59:53,260 --> 01:00:00,230 power wash again uh slowly reading the chat so uh slowly thanks for the raid earlier 524 01:00:00,619 --> 01:00:07,409 crack also beef neck posting little cat cat who's little cat posted in the chat hell y... 525 01:00:07,480 --> 01:00:14,389 for the eight bucks too by the way yeah this is it though for better or for worse the... 526 01:00:14,389 --> 01:00:21,150 's been scrubbed down again it doesn't look that different but like it's so different 527 01:00:21,150 --> 01:00:27,860 also like in front of me which again i know i know you can't see it Once I get everything 528 01:00:27,860 --> 01:00:32,289 in here, I'll actually give you a tour. I've been too embarrassed to do that. 529 01:00:32,289 --> 01:00:35,809 I still would be, but I'll give you a tour. 530 01:00:35,920 --> 01:00:41,099 I'll show you the shelf of broken dreams of all my craft projects. 531 01:00:41,199 --> 01:00:44,690 You know, come on in. Welcome to my crib. 532 01:00:44,769 --> 01:00:50,739 This is MTV. Or whatever. Except for it's just me in my house talking to myself with... 533 01:00:50,840 --> 01:00:56,119 Yeah, this is it. For now. For now. 534 01:00:57,039 --> 01:01:03,590 uh much love good to see you with us mitten kitten honey roasted peanuts or just strai... 535 01:01:03,590 --> 01:01:10,320 says cave to oh my favorite of all of the like mixed nut varietals 536 01:01:10,320 --> 01:01:17,110 is always pecans but i know that's not what you said uh honey roasted peanuts are whol... 537 01:01:17,110 --> 01:01:24,050 hews i'm not a huge fan of honey roasted there are some that are super duper good a... 538 01:01:24,139 --> 01:01:30,960 I'd probably just go with cashews generally speaking but if I'm gonna if like 539 01:01:30,960 --> 01:01:37,849 of the I guess like five or six kind of nuts that you I do I like walnuts too ooh it's... 540 01:01:37,849 --> 01:01:44,530 between walnuts and pecans so neither ultimately but I'm an equal I like them all 541 01:01:44,530 --> 01:01:51,139 I don't want to say the words that were about to leave my mouth because it would have be... 542 01:01:51,139 --> 01:01:57,719 like x-rated but not intended that way uh i've been a big fan of like trail mix okay... 543 01:01:57,800 --> 01:02:04,510 we go or in all of the various accoutrements that go into a mixture of that uh for 544 01:02:04,510 --> 01:02:11,329 for forever um but yeah so neither of your options that you offered but 545 01:02:11,340 --> 01:02:18,050 if i guess ultimately i guess a cashew because honey roasted is hit or miss 546 01:02:18,079 --> 01:02:24,889 you know you know oh lord it's humble l when you're perfect in every way uh right wing ... 547 01:02:24,960 --> 01:02:31,739 than wrong wing hey uh but i mean it's just it's one of those character arc 548 01:02:31,739 --> 01:02:38,369 s you know next thing you know i'll be going to the gym and like doing 549 01:02:38,369 --> 01:02:44,909 macro protein posts or whatever maybe who knows who knows okay who knows 550 01:02:44,909 --> 01:02:51,829 anything's possible it doesn't sound likely but it could you don't know i don't know t... 551 01:02:51,829 --> 01:02:58,349 uh getting your shit together pipeline is varied and it usually just seems to 552 01:02:58,440 --> 01:03:05,269 be the thing whatever someone who wrote the article has like a some sort of insecurity... 553 01:03:05,269 --> 01:03:11,869 or like a thing a conniption with or not conniption what's the word hang up on is... 554 01:03:11,960 --> 01:03:19,070 that's like the it's the far right pipeline is taking care of yourself in general and ... 555 01:03:19,070 --> 01:03:26,579 away into you know a long slow painful death of like heart disease and diabetes 556 01:03:26,579 --> 01:03:33,329 so i guess shout out to all my fellow uh fascists uh 557 01:03:33,340 --> 01:03:40,269 lord knows i'm ignorant me too well met someone uh someone was saying 558 01:03:40,269 --> 01:03:46,829 i called myself retarded earlier on twitter as a tradition and uh someone was 559 01:03:46,829 --> 01:03:54,199 like i'm retarded too i was like yeah but we we we flocked like i don't know what the... 560 01:03:54,199 --> 01:04:00,760 uh you know like there's like a different collective noun or whatever for each 561 01:04:00,760 --> 01:04:07,769 thing i i but i think i think retards would go would travel in a flock and we are... 562 01:04:07,880 --> 01:04:14,610 we become a mighty faggot bundle of sticks i don't know whatever i just want to say fag... 563 01:04:14,610 --> 01:04:21,219 hello to the twitter chat hi l what's up joranimo so say joranimo um what up ellen... 564 01:04:21,219 --> 01:04:27,760 coulters and chatters what's up i got crazy busy again two weeks ago oh dude it's all... 565 01:04:27,760 --> 01:04:34,460 gets in the way if you're ever like if you're watching right now first of all shout out ... 566 01:04:34,460 --> 01:04:41,210 watching hong shu mi mi mi you'll know what it means uh um so stupid if 567 01:04:41,250 --> 01:04:49,230 you're ever like haven't been around for a bit we do appreciate 568 01:04:49,280 --> 01:04:56,139 a good check-in every now and then just so that everyone knows you're okay but if you... 569 01:04:56,139 --> 01:05:02,679 back up you'll be fine i would like it i'm never in my life gonna get me i'd be like ... 570 01:05:02,789 --> 01:05:09,329 way all the time over here too i get it um you're always welcome here life i hope it'... 571 01:05:09,699 --> 01:05:16,449 of your way damn it moo bitch to quote ludacris uh so there 572 01:05:16,449 --> 01:05:23,380 we go ultimately being busy is not not my favorite thing you know like 573 01:05:23,380 --> 01:05:29,909 with like all that crappy i used to write on like job applications like works well 574 01:05:29,980 --> 01:05:36,760 in a fast-paced dynamic environment i actually don't uh i don't prefer it at all 575 01:05:36,909 --> 01:05:43,730 uh i actually don't like being laden with stuff to do constantly to the point where 576 01:05:43,730 --> 01:05:50,300 you don't know what to do first uh again the gestures vaguely at the last two years of ... 577 01:05:50,400 --> 01:05:57,010 hang on I dropped my vape she said in a very cool manner 578 01:05:57,010 --> 01:06:03,869 okay I got it I don't being being busy is as 579 01:06:03,869 --> 01:06:11,000 a byproduct of life sometimes but it's not it's not a virtue so I but I I'm not sayin... 580 01:06:11,000 --> 01:06:17,650 that I used to value I'm always busy why for what for who not a fan slow down city sl 581 01:06:17,650 --> 01:06:24,679 aker what you in such a hurry for uh you're definitely not alone yeah 582 01:06:24,780 --> 01:06:31,570 shout out if you that's you know on the one hand i know that for people who have their... 583 01:06:31,679 --> 01:06:38,550 from just you know piece of shit itis every now and then and i say that with love you... 584 01:06:38,550 --> 01:06:45,110 -reflective piece of shit itis love um if this does not resonate with you at 585 01:06:45,199 --> 01:06:52,030 all first of all completely unfathomable but i talk about it because it's helpful 586 01:06:52,030 --> 01:06:58,550 for me to talk through it and you're my you know captive sounding board but also i kno... 587 01:06:58,550 --> 01:07:05,190 isn't it's not unique uh it's not a unique experience whatsoever and uh it's probably... 588 01:07:05,219 --> 01:07:11,789 that unites many of us you know alone at home miserable oh but it doesn't have to 589 01:07:11,789 --> 01:07:18,510 be a um it doesn't have to be a stopping point just just sometimes it's a place 590 01:07:18,510 --> 01:07:25,130 to land uh my theory you were emotionally drained due to your father's recent surger... 591 01:07:25,130 --> 01:07:31,769 had to recover from it oh no for sure i yeah no for sure but again it's like a deeper it 592 01:07:31,769 --> 01:07:38,500 's deeper than that too uh not to again not to lay blame 593 01:07:38,500 --> 01:07:45,500 on my stepmom dying on us uh but truly i think that 594 01:07:45,500 --> 01:07:52,159 a lot of things that i've been doing in response to her loss have been 595 01:07:52,159 --> 01:07:58,800 compounding into it as well um you know just like existential dread oh no everyone 596 01:07:58,869 --> 01:08:03,099 i love is gonna die at some point this is a stark reminder because someone I love just... 597 01:08:03,260 --> 01:08:07,900 Well, as long as we don't change anything, then hopefully nothing bad else will happen. 598 01:08:08,000 --> 01:08:12,800 Kind of like just, I don't know. And you kind of fade away into, eh, I don't know. 599 01:08:12,900 --> 01:08:16,380 My stepmom would kick my ass for that, mind you. 600 01:08:16,479 --> 01:08:24,159 But, you know, it's a multitude of things. 601 01:08:24,260 --> 01:08:30,899 And I've let them win. But I've let them win for a while. 602 01:08:31,640 --> 01:08:37,550 But, you know, to quote Chumbawamba, you get knocked down, you get knocked up. 603 01:08:37,760 --> 01:08:42,520 Wait, no, you get back. No, wrong lyrics. 604 01:08:42,619 --> 01:08:46,819 Those are not the lyrics. You get knocked up again. 605 01:08:46,939 --> 01:08:51,239 No, that's not how that goes. You get knocked down, you get back up again. 606 01:08:51,340 --> 01:08:57,119 They never going to keep you down or knocked up. That was wrong. 607 01:09:00,560 --> 01:09:07,439 surely someone's made that parody that's way too easy for you to mess up on uh pissing ... 608 01:09:07,539 --> 01:09:14,350 away pissing the night away i don't drink a whiskey drink or vodka drink though what's... 609 01:09:14,350 --> 01:09:20,960 uh uh i used to be at home i love to be at home says cave toad you were 610 01:09:20,989 --> 01:09:27,670 never alone when you realized what jesus did for us and how god loves you wants you bac... 611 01:09:27,670 --> 01:09:34,300 to i need to be more so i need to leave my house more often than i had been um but my... 612 01:09:34,300 --> 01:09:40,840 concern about it she's like are you like you're alone a lot at home uh i see you li... 613 01:09:40,850 --> 01:09:47,489 go to the store or whatever a couple times a week to get like groceries or whatnot or 614 01:09:47,489 --> 01:09:54,180 go visit a family but i don't i'm not like a go and a goer and a doer I like to be here... 615 01:09:54,180 --> 01:10:00,840 a sign of a lot of work that I did in my late 20s to get you know to be to go from being 616 01:10:00,840 --> 01:10:07,609 completely unhinged miserable and a habitual liar and a piece of shit in general uh to... 617 01:10:07,609 --> 01:10:14,199 I'm now I used to never want to be at home because I never wanted to sit still long... 618 01:10:14,199 --> 01:10:21,180 to go wow I'm not doing I'm not doing great am I um so to me like wanting to be at hom... 619 01:10:21,260 --> 01:10:27,880 with my thoughts is is a like a major marker of victory over something 620 01:10:28,029 --> 01:10:34,560 that was you know kind of a defining period of my 20s um but also you 621 01:10:34,560 --> 01:10:41,350 gotta do some stuff sometimes but being busy is not a virtue my aunt god bless her my dad 622 01:10:41,350 --> 01:10:48,140 's sister is like the goingest doingest person and we're all on i can't whatever... 623 01:10:48,140 --> 01:10:54,680 where my family's going like they're all part of like a little sims game but we're all o... 624 01:10:54,680 --> 01:11:01,399 ified by this as like a teenager um but my like she will get up in the morning and ju... 625 01:11:01,399 --> 01:11:08,010 day she'll have my my uncle with her and then just like gets home like seven o'clock at... 626 01:11:08,010 --> 01:11:14,560 's she's always got a long list of stuff it's like well we gotta go here we gotta go the... 627 01:11:14,560 --> 01:11:21,350 down but whatever i am not wired like that uh but yeah 628 01:11:21,350 --> 01:11:27,869 i feel you cave toad uh thank you for the fleet dude sorry i just saw that uh where ... 629 01:11:27,869 --> 01:11:34,699 and jesus do you trust your faith do you trust god well that's uh i mean i've talke... 630 01:11:34,699 --> 01:11:41,359 uh i fell out with the church in my like teen years was a not non-comm 631 01:11:41,489 --> 01:11:48,550 ittal but kind of like edgy reddit atheist type uh you know i'm actually 632 01:11:48,920 --> 01:11:58,020 sweaty um and then ultimately uh you know that didn't work 633 01:11:58,020 --> 01:12:04,600 out so i uh returned to to god in september of 2019 uh it 634 01:12:04,600 --> 01:12:11,630 's it's not a it's not a you know it's got its own structure here you know at the at ... 635 01:12:11,630 --> 01:12:18,180 l but i it's based on a lot of prayer and a lot of uh a lot of 636 01:12:18,180 --> 01:12:24,689 gratitude and thanks and uh kind of taking taking stock of it 637 01:12:24,689 --> 01:12:31,279 all and talking about it with big man so that's it i'm technically confirmed in the... 638 01:12:31,279 --> 01:12:37,899 church i was also baptized in the baptist church but you know that ship's sailed man... 639 01:12:37,979 --> 01:12:44,789 but uh no i've i've unflinching unfailing steadfast uh faith in jesus christ almight... 640 01:12:44,859 --> 01:12:51,380 's that which is a pretty good place to be I do find myself every now and then if like... 641 01:12:51,380 --> 01:12:56,800 ing, I'll like forget I can pray about it. Like, oh, yeah, forget about that, which i... 642 01:12:56,899 --> 01:13:04,500 Always helps, though. OK, wait until God encourages you to get a new chair. 643 01:13:04,600 --> 01:13:11,869 It's not, you know. I've heard a heavenly voice one time. 644 01:13:12,060 --> 01:13:19,329 Three words. That's it. when about the chair ultimately 645 01:13:19,420 --> 01:13:25,939 i think i need to i think it's just something that i should do for myself because i've... 646 01:13:25,939 --> 01:13:32,439 so many things for so long i kind of do want to it's gonna be another craft uh that cou... 647 01:13:32,439 --> 01:13:39,180 if i could just like repatch the top leather because i really love this chair um and th... 648 01:13:39,180 --> 01:13:45,840 chair why not you know will i be able to do it any idiot can do that right me to me 649 01:13:45,939 --> 01:13:52,479 before I spend like $100 on a patch kit that I ultimately do not just naturally succeed... 650 01:13:52,579 --> 01:14:00,399 Crazy. But I kind of want to do that. Try that first and then, you know, go from there. 651 01:14:00,500 --> 01:14:03,840 It's a lazy boy. It's not like a super fancy... 652 01:14:03,939 --> 01:14:11,079 What's that like Herman Miller? Those like super expensive chairs 653 01:14:11,180 --> 01:14:15,260 that everyone on like Reddit and like the like divorced dad subreddits have. 654 01:14:15,939 --> 01:14:20,600 They look nice, but I don't, you know. But it's like a $300 chair, daggummit. 655 01:14:20,699 --> 01:14:29,720 I ain't cheap. Couldn't I put in a softer bulb? 656 01:14:29,819 --> 01:14:37,899 Crazy how many options of light bulbs I have these days. Yes, I could, but ultimately, ... 657 01:14:38,000 --> 01:14:41,420 Again, it's hooked on there by... Well, shit. The paper fell out. 658 01:14:41,520 --> 01:14:48,050 It's hooked on there by a binder clip so I can flip the uh I can flip it when I'm not... 659 01:14:48,119 --> 01:14:54,649 get the light that I want from it it's just not very conducive for hello there it's 660 01:14:54,649 --> 01:15:01,289 Casper the friendly ghost yeah this is really really into it wait 661 01:15:01,289 --> 01:15:14,909 no that's just the oh wait shit hang on oop this 662 01:15:14,909 --> 01:15:22,520 is it oh gosh no quit it's like a i can never remember 663 01:15:22,529 --> 01:15:31,170 which how many clicks it is boy anyways this is why shout 664 01:15:31,170 --> 01:15:39,180 out to all my fellow flats or that sneeze when you go 665 01:15:39,180 --> 01:15:45,779 out in the sun i'm one of them sun sneezing whites i don't know if it 666 01:15:45,779 --> 01:15:52,409 's just white people but i think it's tends to be a genetic marker of the flats 667 01:15:52,409 --> 01:15:58,960 i'd be sneezing in the sun and squinting when it's bright out i didn't realize that that 668 01:15:58,960 --> 01:16:05,479 was i didn't realize that was a something that super pale people struggle with that... 669 01:16:05,479 --> 01:16:12,100 complexions and eyes don't as much sunlight crazy i'm wearing sunglasses if 670 01:16:12,100 --> 01:16:18,970 i even if i'm inside but there's sunlight coming coming in so i'm wearing sunglasses... 671 01:16:18,970 --> 01:16:25,720 brightness now i thought it's a little uncomfortable in it in it yeah that's um it's 672 01:16:25,720 --> 01:16:32,859 me casper from that movie casper i've never seen it but overall 673 01:16:32,859 --> 01:16:39,460 it is brighter in here in general what sorority i was a delta zeta uh 674 01:16:39,460 --> 01:16:46,550 you're not that pale again do you not remember the whole like green light 675 01:16:46,560 --> 01:16:53,140 to again it's color theory brandon trust me i'm not good at it i read like one 676 01:16:53,229 --> 01:16:59,770 thing it was like hey green will help make a better overall color but I'd like that lam... 677 01:16:59,770 --> 01:17:07,029 's like a bank it's a bank lamp I don't know hang on I don't want to move my camera... 678 01:17:07,199 --> 01:17:25,470 's kind of well Kinda 679 01:17:25,539 --> 01:17:31,539 looks like this. Hang on. I gotta switch the screen. 680 01:17:31,539 --> 01:17:36,449 That's my song about it. I wrote it just now. 681 01:17:36,529 --> 01:17:41,489 It's not good, but it's one again. Oh my god. 682 01:17:41,529 --> 01:17:48,149 It's like these. Boop. You know? It's like that like frost 683 01:17:48,170 --> 01:17:54,770 ed like, what? You know, ultimately, if I had known, I could have gotten one 684 01:17:54,770 --> 01:18:00,279 with a green lampshade, but I didn't. This is the janky, shitty version of that. 685 01:18:00,380 --> 01:18:07,220 At Casa L, thank you. It's actually... Maybe I'll treat myself 686 01:18:07,220 --> 01:18:11,909 to a $50 lamp. I like the way these look. 687 01:18:11,909 --> 01:18:16,689 I think they look nice. Fancy. Distinguished. 688 01:18:16,800 --> 01:18:19,939 But I got mine at a thrift store, so... 689 01:18:20,039 --> 01:18:23,380 It's probably not actually from a bank, but to me it looks like one. 690 01:18:23,479 --> 01:18:31,039 A banker's lamp, and why are they green? 691 01:18:31,140 --> 01:18:35,039 Well, now I want to know. Hang on. Hang on. 692 01:18:35,039 --> 01:18:38,039 It's crucial information. This is thebankerslamp. 693 01:18:38,130 --> 01:18:43,979 com. Did you know that was a thing? Me neither. 694 01:18:44,079 --> 01:18:51,170 Hang on. I need... This is whenever I bitch out 695 01:18:51,170 --> 01:18:55,779 silent for using white mode or like light mode in her browsers. 696 01:18:55,869 --> 01:18:59,420 I can't even look at a browser window. Hang on. 697 01:18:59,520 --> 01:19:05,159 Whether or not you like it, this is peak internet performance right here. 698 01:19:05,260 --> 01:19:12,800 Okay. 699 01:19:12,899 --> 01:19:17,939 I need to use my dark mode plugin that I like. 700 01:19:18,340 --> 01:19:22,819 The bankerslamp.com forward slash what is. 701 01:19:22,939 --> 01:19:26,409 Well, let's learn. Is this anti-Semitic? 702 01:19:26,479 --> 01:19:34,319 Probably. Could be. Who knows? Like me, you probably noticed this rather eye-catching... 703 01:19:34,420 --> 01:19:40,500 Isn't it? Yeah, they look nice. This neat lamp is known as a banker's lamp. 704 01:19:40,600 --> 01:19:43,640 It has a design featuring a green glass lampshade. Okay, yeah, no shit. 705 01:19:43,739 --> 01:19:48,739 Did AI write this? This seems like AI filler crap. The design... 706 01:19:48,840 --> 01:19:59,060 Engineer Harrison D. McFadden. Nice. Okay. 707 01:19:59,159 --> 01:20:02,619 They just look nice! They look nice to me! They call to me. 708 01:20:02,720 --> 01:20:05,899 It's like that and, um... Like, cobalt blue. 709 01:20:06,119 --> 01:20:12,970 In glass form is... Like, the exact color of certain lights on an airport 710 01:20:13,039 --> 01:20:19,760 runway is a cobalt... Oh, that's... that and like jade i think it's just i really i lik... 711 01:20:19,760 --> 01:20:26,460 in general so i guess that's it too like in the 90s everyone had like bright ass carpe... 712 01:20:26,460 --> 01:20:33,380 i guess carpet like we had like some emerald green carpet in our house and it looked... 713 01:20:33,380 --> 01:20:39,949 it was fun okay uh such a lamp was patented in the united states shout out us we're do... 714 01:20:40,029 --> 01:20:46,590 emerald light brand name never heard of it uh libraries da da da da 715 01:20:46,890 --> 01:20:53,470 da da first patent was filed on 11th may 11th 1909 by harrison 716 01:20:53,550 --> 01:21:00,060 d mcfadden uh and the lamps were produced and sold under the brand name emerald light wo... 717 01:21:00,060 --> 01:21:06,819 you know again that redundant and repetitive information uh short or like emerald and... 718 01:21:06,819 --> 01:21:13,810 uh emerald light lamp shades were produced by the j schreiber and neffen factory 719 01:21:13,810 --> 01:21:20,350 in uh the town of rapitin moravia czech republic okay uh okay 720 01:21:20,409 --> 01:21:27,119 a british version um was filed in 1929 okay so there's 721 01:21:27,119 --> 01:21:34,199 no reason for it it just looks fancy and people like them okay cool 722 01:21:34,199 --> 01:21:40,909 i guess hang on listen this is the big dig for the night i kind of do want 723 01:21:40,909 --> 01:21:47,770 the green one i kind of made like i have like a shitty one that i i guess subconsciously... 724 01:21:47,770 --> 01:21:54,390 ning for it i even know it uh okay i'm like i want to cap it past this 725 01:21:54,390 --> 01:22:01,010 oh my god they like advertise for it we're gonna find out on the 726 01:22:01,010 --> 01:22:08,590 next big dig energy actually it's just right now What was 727 01:22:08,590 --> 01:22:16,239 the year on that? 728 01:22:16,560 --> 01:22:33,439 19... Hey, Nolan! Here 729 01:22:33,439 --> 01:22:40,710 's the Franklin Repository in 1910. Cool. 730 01:22:40,880 --> 01:22:47,619 Nice. Thank you for raiding the strain. 731 01:22:47,720 --> 01:22:53,100 The strain. What the hell? What the hell? Thank you for raiding the strain, Belushi. 732 01:22:53,199 --> 01:22:59,939 You brought my country bumpkin out. Whether or not you wanted it to. 733 01:23:00,039 --> 01:23:03,720 We're looking up. Again. Did anyone want this? 734 01:23:03,869 --> 01:23:10,640 No. Did anyone ask for this? No. But what I'm looking up are old advertisements in... 735 01:23:10,869 --> 01:23:16,829 those green desk lamps for banks and libraries. This is from the Franklin. 736 01:23:16,829 --> 01:23:21,329 You just in time. I know you're panicked. You're like, wow, that sounds fascinating. 737 01:23:21,329 --> 01:23:25,479 I can't believe I missed that. You didn't. You showed up right in the perfect timing. 738 01:23:25,579 --> 01:23:33,479 Pennsylvania, November 17th, 1910. it's like 739 01:23:33,479 --> 01:23:40,800 a can of k what the hell okay don't get distracted she says knowing 740 01:23:40,800 --> 01:23:47,859 full well the new desk pulpit or piano lamp is named emerald light green 741 01:23:47,859 --> 01:23:54,649 enameled glass reflector throws the light directly upon your desk at a proper angle... 742 01:23:54,649 --> 01:23:58,250 's that is true okay so as to Concentrate the illumination upon a given object. 743 01:23:58,359 --> 01:24:04,239 I thought the green was like for your eyes or something. 744 01:24:04,340 --> 01:24:10,069 It just looks nice. It is the electro cutest thing. 745 01:24:10,239 --> 01:24:15,560 Oh, my God. That's delightful writing right there. 746 01:24:15,739 --> 01:24:21,189 Throws a light directly upon your desk at a proper angle. So as to concentrate the... 747 01:24:21,319 --> 01:24:24,600 It is the electro cutest thing we have seen in a long while. 748 01:24:24,699 --> 01:24:29,079 1910 humor. Peak. Uh, for things electric, see chaff. 749 01:24:29,180 --> 01:24:37,239 Pervert. Uh, cool. Nice. 750 01:24:37,399 --> 01:24:48,539 They can hang your paper and decorate for you. Watson's 751 01:24:48,640 --> 01:24:52,500 fixings for feminine folk. Uh-oh, she found a newspaper. 752 01:24:52,600 --> 01:24:56,479 We ain't never gonna get out of this one. Want a sweater? 753 01:24:56,619 --> 01:25:03,319 yeah sure why not uh yes you can afford one too so you can thank you watson's you don'... 754 01:25:03,319 --> 01:25:10,119 dollars for a nice sweater come to watson's and get one at less than you expected to p... 755 01:25:10,119 --> 01:25:16,689 is another item for your consideration i never considered it actually uh we think w... 756 01:25:16,689 --> 01:25:23,470 to be had come in and let us convince you uh 10 10 off to teachers this week all right 757 01:25:23,689 --> 01:25:30,430 sure and then like uh so just i don't know what that 758 01:25:30,430 --> 01:25:36,979 is uh looks like some nazi dog whistles to me yeah if you yeah 759 01:25:36,979 --> 01:25:43,609 to ask me uh that's just kind of the de facto if i don't know what it is it's probably... 760 01:25:43,670 --> 01:25:50,239 bet uh go back to that trademark note the farm ikea and the snakes in the pyramid 761 01:25:54,159 --> 01:25:59,890 I don't see snakes. I mean, I see the... 762 01:25:59,960 --> 01:26:08,039 I mean... Looks like... Listen, I'm a millennial, so to me I'm like Harry Potter... 763 01:26:08,140 --> 01:26:14,750 It's... Oh, wait. The J is, like, forked at the top? 764 01:26:14,819 --> 01:26:22,899 I don't... Listen, some of you are way better at, you know, being schizophrenic about th... 765 01:26:23,010 --> 01:26:27,300 I wish I had that skill set. I really do. And I say, you know, I say schizo with love. 766 01:26:27,409 --> 01:26:35,159 I don't... I look at it and I'm like, yeah, that's probably something. Wish I knew more. 767 01:26:35,260 --> 01:26:40,239 Well, that's a shame. And then I'll just, like, move on. Because I don't even, you... 768 01:26:40,340 --> 01:26:47,539 I can... There's tons of... 769 01:26:47,640 --> 01:26:57,420 Let's see. see there's a different here's a 770 01:26:57,420 --> 01:27:08,859 different ad this is from a couple weeks later 771 01:27:08,960 --> 01:27:15,810 i do love a good newspaper the jg shaft electric company looking for something 772 01:27:15,810 --> 01:27:22,699 for a gift no thought so okay well okay but i just said no thought so most everyone 773 01:27:22,699 --> 01:27:29,319 is just now oh it was right before christmas december 1 1910 uh well you 774 01:27:29,319 --> 01:27:36,260 have come to a good place how about a flashlight a reading lamp uh the emerald... 775 01:27:36,260 --> 01:27:44,810 it is called or a parlor lamp or is it one of holy run-on sentence 776 01:27:44,810 --> 01:27:55,340 Batman what what whoever wrote that was on crack 777 01:27:55,340 --> 01:28:03,420 or laudanum or whatever it was at the time 778 01:28:03,420 --> 01:28:13,659 oh god what is piles 779 01:28:13,659 --> 01:28:21,479 what that's like that's like a character that like craw 780 01:28:22,100 --> 01:28:28,930 ls out of the back rooms and like unhinges that this jaw to eat you 781 01:28:28,930 --> 01:28:35,470 piles quick I'm carrying my piles in my house right now too oh my god maybe we have more... 782 01:28:35,470 --> 01:28:42,130 I think I'm sorry I'd said that you look like an evil spirit but you kind of do but i've... 783 01:28:42,130 --> 01:28:48,909 in my house too what's a pile not gomer obviously uh sorry i'm so behind on chat i... 784 01:28:49,020 --> 01:28:55,560 to say thank you uh cornelius but nicole i'm gonna say thanks for donations on rumble... 785 01:28:55,670 --> 01:29:02,239 for five dollars calling people retarded so makes everything better it's science it's... 786 01:29:02,239 --> 01:29:08,859 and if you question it you're out of the gang you're of the flock if you bathe in the bl... 787 01:29:08,859 --> 01:29:15,420 call you countess l uh in reference to countess bathory who bathed in the blood o... 788 01:29:15,420 --> 01:29:22,409 to prove i not what ew ew um i'm not gonna do that um i use pantene pro v shampoo 789 01:29:22,409 --> 01:29:29,539 and conditioner and i use keels on my face that's it uh so there 790 01:29:29,649 --> 01:29:38,560 shout out to pantine i wish i could quit you uh all right sorry way behind g. 791 01:29:38,560 --> 01:29:45,569 i.g. pencil five dollars way earlier tonight's l cult school of a pie uh i can'... 792 01:29:45,569 --> 01:29:52,069 though i never have been able never have been able to now uh l cult school of aspiring 793 01:29:52,069 --> 01:29:55,859 guitar-shaped driveway owners is fruit punch. It's not spiked, I promise. 794 01:29:55,939 --> 01:30:01,180 It's just mixed with vodka instead of waters. Cheers. You know what pissed me off the ot... 795 01:30:01,279 --> 01:30:07,850 Here, listen. I mean, hang on hang on forget about the the back rooms dweller for a sec... 796 01:30:07,850 --> 01:30:14,390 sorry this pissed me off the other day there's a whole debate it's not even a deb... 797 01:30:14,390 --> 01:30:21,199 shout out to y'all boy you love it you just fester in it there's been an ongoing debat... 798 01:30:21,199 --> 01:30:27,840 quite some time on the interwebs i don't know if you've been aware of it oh man sorry yo... 799 01:30:27,939 --> 01:30:34,619 i got triggered i got activated like a sleeper cell but about air conditioning 800 01:30:34,619 --> 01:30:41,300 uh and the largely held opinion of many americans and other places where you know ... 801 01:30:41,300 --> 01:30:47,899 is conditioned and and the climate the indoor climate is regulated on a year-round basis... 802 01:30:47,899 --> 01:30:54,699 during peak uh you know sorry my nose is itchy uh like what weather fluctuations 803 01:30:54,699 --> 01:31:01,300 because more people die of heat stroke and like it's crazy people are just roasting 804 01:31:01,300 --> 01:31:06,090 alive in their homes uh and just constantly and people uh in the u. 805 01:31:06,090 --> 01:31:12,939 s this is largely this is all chronically online like tiktok discourse so i'm gonna ... 806 01:31:12,939 --> 01:31:19,649 it down for you people on tiktok are like hey well at the very least europeans always brag 807 01:31:19,649 --> 01:31:26,340 about not drinking water like they're like why do americans always have like a jug of... 808 01:31:26,340 --> 01:31:33,060 around with them it's like okay well they they pick the weirdest shit um so they don... 809 01:31:33,119 --> 01:31:39,890 and they don't carry around a jug of water to cool off with and again it's anyways so... 810 01:31:40,340 --> 01:31:46,890 die a lot uh during extreme heat waves in europe and in the uk and there's 811 01:31:46,890 --> 01:31:53,409 this woman named anne who like her whole thing is that she's like a like 50 somethi... 812 01:31:53,409 --> 01:32:00,090 old british lady who tells you how to clean stuff which i used to follow her and then ... 813 01:32:00,090 --> 01:32:06,680 oh if you got to get like a it's always like very specific stuff but people are like i... 814 01:32:06,680 --> 01:32:13,350 the carpet and she's like she knows how to do all kinds of stuff because she's a... 815 01:32:13,390 --> 01:32:19,989 whole like snarky looking down on americans video the other day talking about how you don 816 01:32:19,989 --> 01:32:26,869 't actually need water unless you live in a tropical climate you don't need water and ... 817 01:32:26,869 --> 01:32:33,470 that i you know what i hate and you triggered me because you said that the kool-aid flavor 818 01:32:33,579 --> 01:32:40,180 had been the the water had been replaced with vodka and guys you americans and 819 01:32:40,289 --> 01:32:47,100 your water like okay okay those fuckers are sucking tea down 24 7 820 01:32:47,100 --> 01:32:53,960 what's the main ingredient in a cup of tea in it it's water in it fuck that i just 821 01:32:53,960 --> 01:33:00,550 you know i danny if you're watching right now this is not about you okay oh danny boy 822 01:33:00,550 --> 01:33:07,100 you delightful british being you you are different you're the exception but how are... 823 01:33:07,100 --> 01:33:13,670 gonna drink like six cups of fucking tea a day and be like we don't need watered isn't 824 01:33:13,670 --> 01:33:20,170 it we're different you all just drink too much water and grow up 825 01:33:20,170 --> 01:33:28,859 like boy anyways i you know i know that sometimes americans 826 01:33:28,859 --> 01:33:35,439 say stuff that make the rest of us look real stupid it turns out 827 01:33:35,439 --> 01:33:42,489 kind of just the average population the gen like just in general you're gonna find lou... 828 01:33:42,489 --> 01:33:49,539 retards everywhere and it's not exclusive to america we just have a lot of extremely lo... 829 01:33:49,539 --> 01:33:56,180 retards here that have social media and a really good like algorithmic capturing and... 830 01:33:56,180 --> 01:34:02,750 's easy you know easy punching bag or whatever but boy we really let them 831 01:34:02,750 --> 01:34:09,500 get away with way too much for way too long i think a lot of Americans 832 01:34:09,500 --> 01:34:16,260 fell for the accent they're like oh well he said with a with a British accent he's gon... 833 01:34:16,260 --> 01:34:23,090 I have seen some of the absolute dumbest motherfuckers on this planet sitting in like 834 01:34:23,090 --> 01:34:29,710 Croydon dropping their hot takes listen here no more and and we don't have to drink 835 01:34:29,710 --> 01:34:37,100 Walter you don't have to drink you drink so much fucking tea you absolutely stupid bit... 836 01:34:37,100 --> 01:34:43,729 thank you for listening hearing me out also and they're like well our houses are they'... 837 01:34:43,729 --> 01:34:50,279 see are we we're from an old nation you see our buildings are older than your country ... 838 01:34:50,279 --> 01:34:56,880 an air conditioner it's like okay yeah but also newsflash uh they've learned how to... 839 01:34:56,880 --> 01:35:03,430 in just to just about any situation you don't have our windows will fall apart they can'... 840 01:35:03,539 --> 01:35:10,050 can get one that sits on the floor and you like vent it out the window there's an air... 841 01:35:10,050 --> 01:35:16,760 like a single space in your house so that you don't have to die of heat stroke alone um ... 842 01:35:16,760 --> 01:35:25,229 of excuses and hubris and fucking tea water anyways eating their 843 01:35:25,279 --> 01:35:31,880 beans in it so anyways um there's not really like an 844 01:35:31,880 --> 01:35:38,439 in conclusion to this it's just i think that people really we let that accent 845 01:35:38,439 --> 01:35:45,149 get away with entirely too much we just let it be synonymous with intelligence and it ... 846 01:35:45,149 --> 01:35:52,010 oh anyways that's it thank you for the five dollars earlier sorry about the rant but i... 847 01:35:52,010 --> 01:35:59,000 chronically online low stakes drama every now and then so now you know whether 848 01:35:59,000 --> 01:36:05,680 you wanted to you still do okay oh wait oh shit no I accidentally closed the 849 01:36:05,829 --> 01:36:13,340 rumble wait wait what and now I can't reopen what the what the hang on let's close the... 850 01:36:13,350 --> 01:36:20,319 it's not my own fault surely it's the computers oh 851 01:36:20,319 --> 01:36:27,130 no there it is no it's not hang on whatever I might not be able to see the old chats now... 852 01:36:27,130 --> 01:36:33,970 you have to like pop out the chat enable large history viewing it's and now they've... 853 01:36:33,970 --> 01:36:40,500 the verbiage rumble is so stupid they make some real dumb design decisions that's fin... 854 01:36:40,500 --> 01:36:47,109 those old chats now though sorry but it's probably good you get us all on the same p... 855 01:36:47,220 --> 01:36:53,850 time of 10 40 at night well thank if you donated and uh made a comment i did i do l... 856 01:36:53,960 --> 01:37:00,789 i like to read if you send me money i'll usually just read i'll read it because i... 857 01:37:00,789 --> 01:37:07,369 i'm gonna fall into uh fall short of that end of the bargain for the time being because ... 858 01:37:07,369 --> 01:37:14,210 window on accident when i was trying to i was trying to expand it so i could 859 01:37:14,210 --> 01:37:22,159 read so oops crushed that uh all right l does a pretty good British accent in it. 860 01:37:22,260 --> 01:37:29,500 I don't do a good one purposefully. They don't deserve it. 861 01:37:29,600 --> 01:37:36,449 God, nah. I'm just kidding. I think just... 862 01:37:36,779 --> 01:37:44,369 It turns out... I think one of the weirdest things about the internet in general 863 01:37:44,449 --> 01:37:48,810 is given enough time, we'll all kind of show... 864 01:37:51,100 --> 01:37:56,859 Our tell, our knowledge gap tell will ultimately be discoverable by the masses. 865 01:37:56,960 --> 01:38:04,229 Because we'll start talking about something belligerently wrong, much like Glenn Kessl... 866 01:38:04,340 --> 01:38:11,949 She just, I would like to also just, if you are super chronically online and you know ... 867 01:38:12,060 --> 01:38:20,619 She recently was diagnosed and seemingly is on the mend from a bout of chemotherapy af... 868 01:38:21,069 --> 01:38:24,520 I don't wish her, you know, wrong for having cancer. 869 01:38:24,619 --> 01:38:28,770 It's for being a bitch. Okay? And not even in a fun way. 870 01:38:29,079 --> 01:38:35,789 Turns out, sometimes you can have cancer and I can feel bad for you, but I still am... 871 01:38:36,279 --> 01:38:44,020 It's off-putting to be 60 years old and not realize that tea is fucking water. 872 01:38:44,119 --> 01:38:48,199 And to be so condescending about it. You Americans. Fuck you, Anne. 873 01:38:50,520 --> 01:38:54,079 Good luck with your cancer, but good luck. Fuck you. Ugh. 874 01:38:54,550 --> 01:39:02,630 Anyways. If you know who I'm talking about, shout out to you. 875 01:39:03,100 --> 01:39:06,140 Sorry, I feel like I just snorted a cat hair. 876 01:39:06,239 --> 01:39:10,119 My nose is itchy. Give me a second. Let me just scratch in peace. 877 01:39:10,220 --> 01:39:17,310 I like it gritty. No audio. 878 01:39:18,039 --> 01:39:21,409 Wait, did I fuck it up? Uh, hang on. 879 01:39:21,520 --> 01:39:27,960 No, I just, um... I just, like, snorted a cat hair. 880 01:39:28,060 --> 01:39:32,420 So I wanted to casually pick my nose without y'all seeing it. 881 01:39:32,539 --> 01:39:36,800 Because it was, like, right here. I got it, so there we go. Water, it's moist. 882 01:39:36,899 --> 01:39:43,470 Ugh. Ew! Um, it's kind of like when 883 01:39:43,909 --> 01:39:48,510 , uh, like, Jamie Raskin made a big to-do about... 884 01:39:50,520 --> 01:39:57,210 having cancer uh with his fucking do-rag you look like prison mike and everyone's like ... 885 01:39:57,369 --> 01:40:03,960 like prison mike and i can say he's a certified doofus it turns out certified... 886 01:40:03,960 --> 01:40:10,579 get cancer uh and again we can wish them well but we can also call them a doofus it 887 01:40:10,579 --> 01:40:17,130 absolutely prison mike's that like and again there's so much that happens with like 888 01:40:17,270 --> 01:40:23,779 cancer treatment and uh my stepmom tried like cold capping but i know that i know i 889 01:40:23,779 --> 01:40:30,399 know okay if you've been if you've been through it yourself or seen someone you lo... 890 01:40:30,399 --> 01:40:36,899 through it it's awful but that the bandana he wore was performative that was a performat... 891 01:40:36,899 --> 01:40:43,640 flashy bandana on purpose he's a doofus uh we wish him well uh tea pretty broad 892 01:40:43,640 --> 01:40:50,680 category in it all diuretics i don't know the only tea i recognize 893 01:40:50,680 --> 01:40:57,199 is sweet all right so i don't i also i do like good i like chai but i don't drink 894 01:40:57,199 --> 01:41:04,420 a lot of tea but i do like sweet tea obviously sweaty tea tastes 895 01:41:04,420 --> 01:41:11,130 good but makes me feel nauseous series well some it that 896 01:41:11,380 --> 01:41:20,310 there's a wide uh like array of various caffeine uh content 897 01:41:20,310 --> 01:41:27,029 contents if anyone remembers this i was actually just thinking um it was one of th... 898 01:41:27,029 --> 01:41:33,609 trying to quit drinking red bull i think probably maybe a year or two ago um where 899 01:41:33,609 --> 01:41:40,289 i replaced it with what I thought was a caffeine free tea and it turns 900 01:41:40,289 --> 01:41:47,000 out whatever it was like I was like I was like cracked out of my mind uh on one 901 01:41:47,109 --> 01:41:53,850 of the streets and I had been consuming more caffeine than I think I ever had with a Re... 902 01:41:53,850 --> 01:42:00,659 uh it was it was nice but ultimately it made me feel like like that like kind of you just 903 01:42:00,659 --> 01:42:07,329 feel like doom like panic setting in about literally nothing i guess anxiety got my 904 01:42:07,329 --> 01:42:13,909 anxiety ramped up so shout out to whatever fucking tea that was it's long gone now 905 01:42:13,909 --> 01:42:20,689 but still i hate the word moist says crash davis grow up okay there's there 906 01:42:20,689 --> 01:42:27,729 are way worse words out there to listen to phonetically than moist it's not great 907 01:42:27,989 --> 01:42:34,880 but I can't think of one off the top of my head right now either I wanted to like I w... 908 01:42:34,880 --> 01:42:42,430 uh and come to me in a vision but it did not so boo I'm a bit sensitive to caffeine 909 01:42:42,430 --> 01:42:49,289 yes yeah um it just seems like so I know what I'm getting 910 01:42:49,289 --> 01:42:56,380 into I have a new energy drink that's not Red Bull uh that has I mean the caffeine content 911 01:42:56,380 --> 01:43:03,250 is high but I know what I'm getting into when I have one uh I feel if you steep 912 01:43:03,319 --> 01:43:09,939 it longer do you get I don't I don't get it I don't understand tea I don't need 913 01:43:09,939 --> 01:43:16,579 to understand tea I drink Milo's tea out of the jug from the grocery store the only st... 914 01:43:16,579 --> 01:43:23,270 because Milo's delicious if you know you know um and then I'll make my damn own it's 915 01:43:23,270 --> 01:43:29,829 Louisiana Louisiana you know red diamond some royal cup is good too that 916 01:43:29,829 --> 01:43:36,810 's kind of like a okay i'll have a few different kinds but i like weezing ain't n... 917 01:43:36,810 --> 01:43:43,460 like nana's tea party hey ho there we go i love me some green tea and ool 918 01:43:43,460 --> 01:43:50,380 ong tea i don't even know what an oolong is but if you like it and you're happy good 919 01:43:50,380 --> 01:43:56,970 i'm happy for you um okay thank you so much man you've 920 01:43:56,970 --> 01:44:03,539 been so generous and kind tonight thank you uh look into taurine it's 921 01:44:03,590 --> 01:44:10,220 a chemical that really is not needed for the human body and realize the trouble for it oh 922 01:44:10,220 --> 01:44:18,329 hang on oh shit i'm so old well heck yeah it 923 01:44:18,399 --> 01:44:25,390 's in here i'm not saying this this energy drink is 924 01:44:25,390 --> 01:44:32,189 it's it's i think it's probably better for me than a red bull was because i was drinking 925 01:44:32,239 --> 01:44:39,090 like for like two years i was drinking like two a day of like full octane fully loaded 926 01:44:39,090 --> 01:44:46,010 full sugar red bulls uh let's see first the ingredient 927 01:44:46,039 --> 01:44:52,960 number one though and it's carbonated water and citric 928 01:44:52,960 --> 01:45:00,109 acid taurine natural flavors sodium citrate l-the 929 01:45:00,779 --> 01:45:07,670 anine caffeine hell yeah uh sucralose panax gins 930 01:45:07,670 --> 01:45:15,989 eng root extract potassium sorbate sodium benzoate wait 931 01:45:15,989 --> 01:45:22,880 i was like sodium bicarbonate nevermind that's stupid stupid la 932 01:45:23,310 --> 01:45:29,810 uren stupid uh we're in some words i don't know how to say l-carnit 933 01:45:29,810 --> 01:45:36,390 ine uh l-tartrate asulfame potassium niacinamide inosit 934 01:45:36,390 --> 01:45:43,359 ol inositol uh i don't know again i am not a health 935 01:45:43,359 --> 01:45:50,770 influencer i am a chronically somewhat depressed lady who is trying 936 01:45:51,010 --> 01:45:57,520 to make small but measurable changes day in and day out rather than trying to make lik... 937 01:45:57,520 --> 01:46:04,319 changes that are that have completely unrealistic expectations set for them that... 938 01:46:04,319 --> 01:46:10,890 and misery once i fall short of my own unrealistic plans so listen i think this i... 939 01:46:10,890 --> 01:46:17,460 red bull is it better over probably not uh baby steps hey kitty oh my goodness there 940 01:46:17,460 --> 01:46:24,119 's a kitty over here she's having dinner though uh yeah girl do you wonder why you ... 941 01:46:24,119 --> 01:46:30,699 astic all the time these do that i don't think i'm spastic first 942 01:46:30,699 --> 01:46:38,569 of all i think you're spastic um you know who 943 01:46:38,569 --> 01:46:45,279 takes the word spaz like real seriously the british i made 944 01:46:45,840 --> 01:46:52,380 the mistake once of saying like calling someone a spaz one of my british friends a... 945 01:46:52,380 --> 01:46:59,300 't believe he said that like to them it's like the equivalent of like it's very... 946 01:46:59,300 --> 01:47:06,050 to just really like just call call a british person a spaz see happens nothing will hap... 947 01:47:06,220 --> 01:47:13,310 they're not gonna do nothing but still no no no i'm sorry no i'm i was just giving you... 948 01:47:13,310 --> 01:47:21,079 i genuinely appreciate it um i have um what i have over 949 01:47:21,079 --> 01:47:27,989 there i still have the uh i bought another pack of these uh that 950 01:47:27,989 --> 01:47:34,630 i think it was andy got me hooked on they're called riot uh but they're actually like 951 01:47:34,869 --> 01:47:41,489 all natural everything i bought some the other day i went to the grocery store afte... 952 01:47:41,489 --> 01:47:48,229 so like obviously i was like everything is gonna change we're gonna have celery and... 953 01:47:48,229 --> 01:47:54,880 we're gonna have very good for us energy drinks i like them i think they're better ... 954 01:47:54,880 --> 01:48:01,619 than the alani but alani tastes good i like the flavors i like the can size uh i like 955 01:48:01,739 --> 01:48:08,479 the 12 ounce cans that's basically the requirement for anyone that i try i feel l... 956 01:48:08,479 --> 01:48:15,069 six ounces it's too much goldilocks uh you love to dig dig on 957 01:48:15,069 --> 01:48:21,590 taurine i got heart palpitations from vaping about three months ago so sage say 958 01:48:21,590 --> 01:48:28,659 listen here y'all listen baby steps okay i used to chain smoke newports outside 959 01:48:28,659 --> 01:48:35,520 the pizza place that i worked at and i would drink full octane red bull okay now 960 01:48:35,619 --> 01:48:42,300 arguably none of the changes i've made are better for me but i feel better because it... 961 01:48:42,420 --> 01:48:48,960 that i care all right and that's what it's all about really it's performative also i... 962 01:48:48,960 --> 01:48:52,539 had to go outside to smoke although i kind of did like that but still. 963 01:48:52,640 --> 01:49:02,000 Ugh. Sad. I hate the word juicy. 964 01:49:02,050 --> 01:49:07,250 I blame diversity. Juicy just makes me think of those like velvet tracksuits. 965 01:49:07,439 --> 01:49:12,489 Of which I have two, mind you. Natural flavor equals MSG. 966 01:49:12,500 --> 01:49:15,609 Well, MSG is delicious, first of all, so write that down. 967 01:49:15,859 --> 01:49:22,529 That's it. of list. Just do it. 968 01:49:22,850 --> 01:49:26,250 You don't have to be a health freak or whatever. 969 01:49:26,300 --> 01:49:32,560 Just start learning. Well, I have, again, baby step. 970 01:49:32,670 --> 01:49:40,020 This is part of the baby step process. The baby step process 971 01:49:40,119 --> 01:49:46,789 involves you know don't backslide essentially uh and and 972 01:49:46,789 --> 01:49:53,340 and try to take you know try to take one step forward me to me for the 973 01:49:53,340 --> 01:49:59,840 last two years uh what oh my god little cat she's so upset with me because i've moved ... 974 01:49:59,840 --> 01:50:06,430 in the other room i guess she does that anyways she's singing a song over people i... 975 01:50:06,430 --> 01:50:12,970 sad uh you can quit or switch to something else a little healthier or i could just keep 976 01:50:12,970 --> 01:50:19,529 smoking the one i have i ain't ready for that conversation i'll get there maybe but i ai... 977 01:50:19,529 --> 01:50:26,229 now i think uh i like i don't i drink occasionally uh like if 978 01:50:26,229 --> 01:50:33,010 i'm if my father is present if i have a chaperone in the form 979 01:50:33,010 --> 01:50:39,779 of my father i will have an alcohol or two and have but i don't drink i don't do drug... 980 01:50:39,779 --> 01:50:47,119 i'm dabbled i'm i'm taking a toot of plenty of things uh but my and i quite 981 01:50:47,239 --> 01:50:53,949 frankly i don't consider caffeine or uh uh nicotine to 982 01:50:53,949 --> 01:51:00,590 be by comparison i technically i suppose they are but uh if i you got 983 01:51:00,590 --> 01:51:07,109 if i had to choose between the drinks or the nicotine i'd pick the drinks have to go 984 01:51:07,210 --> 01:51:14,279 but i'll have that conversation maybe one day but not right now sorry 985 01:51:14,380 --> 01:51:22,479 uh artificial sweeteners taste like shit i mean yeah if 986 01:51:23,140 --> 01:51:30,189 you get used to them though there was oh man uh my grandparents 987 01:51:30,189 --> 01:51:36,760 are like there's a whole sub section of my family they're they're like ste 988 01:51:36,760 --> 01:51:43,420 they're the stevia side of the fucking family we love them but they all got into stevia ... 989 01:51:43,420 --> 01:51:50,130 plant what whatever it is i don't know what it is it's called stevia uh and everything... 990 01:51:50,250 --> 01:51:57,109 make with that fucking sugar and it it's if you i guess if you're used to it it's fine... 991 01:51:57,109 --> 01:52:04,220 it tastes disgusting personally if you're a stevia person shout 992 01:52:04,510 --> 01:52:11,210 out to you and you're just what hi what i don't know if y'all can hear her she's don... 993 01:52:11,239 --> 01:52:18,000 you can get up here you know would you like to come here i 994 01:52:18,029 --> 01:52:25,100 don't know hither trying to summon a cat is difficult 995 01:52:25,100 --> 01:52:31,670 work she's ultimately you coming come here don't look at me 996 01:52:31,670 --> 01:52:38,359 with your moon eye come here you look so cute come here that's right next to me she's li... 997 01:52:38,810 --> 01:52:45,359 too much around for the last two days i don't like it okay well sorry cat cats do not 998 01:52:45,359 --> 01:52:53,090 like change they're rather hesitant Uh, backsliding is very dangerous. 999 01:52:53,189 --> 01:52:59,500 Uh, well, if that's, like, a perverted comment, okay, take a lap. 1000 01:52:59,659 --> 01:53:06,319 Um, but no, like, that's, it's something that I just know, at least for 1001 01:53:06,329 --> 01:53:13,569 me, uh, it's something that if I, uh, we're all very good at, uh, identifying 1002 01:53:13,569 --> 01:53:22,220 the problem with whatever, right? I mean, that's basically the entirety of like... 1003 01:53:22,319 --> 01:53:29,039 I mean, that's wrong, but it takes a lot more effort to, you know, identify 1004 01:53:29,609 --> 01:53:37,159 and then lay out a solutions based kind of framework for how to move forward. 1005 01:53:37,300 --> 01:53:44,430 I have this it's kind of like my my craft wall of of demise over here. 1006 01:53:45,520 --> 01:53:52,199 you know i can i can pinpoint the problem like there it is i see it there it is got ... 1007 01:53:52,199 --> 01:53:58,930 know make a big make a big multi-step plan and really hash out the nitty-gritty of wh... 1008 01:53:58,930 --> 01:54:05,430 uh i have this thing where if for some reason it's you know it's like all right 1009 01:54:05,430 --> 01:54:11,989 we're gonna this is the this is the new me all right bye old you and you live by this 1010 01:54:11,989 --> 01:54:18,560 plan now and any if if i like fall anywhere short of that uh it it does something 1011 01:54:18,560 --> 01:54:25,090 to my brain that just like it's like just crushing it's just like my mental well-bei... 1012 01:54:25,199 --> 01:54:31,880 is stupid because again it's the calls coming from inside the house i set that trap uh s... 1013 01:54:31,880 --> 01:54:38,720 to mitigate pretty closely because it's uh ain't what i'm proud of but that's like 1014 01:54:38,720 --> 01:54:47,220 that's one of those kind of tragic flaws of my central character, I suppose. 1015 01:54:47,319 --> 01:54:51,939 She pissed off Kitty Cat. Well, she's down here licking her foot, so she's having a g... 1016 01:54:52,029 --> 01:54:56,170 Come here. Spread them toes out, Kitty. She did. 1017 01:54:56,170 --> 01:55:01,189 My dear. She's getting in there. She's licking her little toes. 1018 01:55:01,210 --> 01:55:05,210 Having a good time. To change the Leviathan is much different than changing yourself. 1019 01:55:05,289 --> 01:55:14,159 Recognize want-do. Want-do? I like honey and jaggery. 1020 01:55:14,159 --> 01:55:17,510 What's a jaggery? That sounds like a racial slur. Are you a bigot? 1021 01:55:17,510 --> 01:55:20,979 Are you a racist? Am I? What's a jaggery, though? 1022 01:55:20,979 --> 01:55:27,729 Hang on. According to Google AI Overview, which is 1023 01:55:27,800 --> 01:55:36,920 the most reliable source of information on the World Wide Web, 1024 01:55:36,920 --> 01:55:45,220 write that down. Jaggery, also known as gur in 1025 01:55:45,220 --> 01:55:51,619 South Asia, is unrefined sugar made from sugar cane or palm sap. 1026 01:55:51,699 --> 01:55:56,760 I read that at a glance as sugar plum. That's not what that said. 1027 01:55:56,859 --> 01:56:03,890 Okay. Yeah. Jaggery, racist, is produced by evaporating 1028 01:56:03,939 --> 01:56:11,439 water from sugar cane juice or palm sap without separating molasses. 1029 01:56:12,520 --> 01:56:19,119 That sounds nice though. Uh, contains more nutrients than refined sugar, including iron 1030 01:56:19,119 --> 01:56:23,079 , calcium, and other minerals. Okay, well now, okay. 1031 01:56:23,079 --> 01:56:29,989 Now I'm gonna try it. Micro, my lovely West Asian friend, is this 1032 01:56:29,989 --> 01:56:35,939 something that I would... Tell me a brand to get. 1033 01:56:35,939 --> 01:56:42,510 That sounds nice, actually. I like molasses but I you know I don 1034 01:56:42,510 --> 01:56:49,470 't have like a developed palate for it uh most likely uh 1035 01:56:49,800 --> 01:56:56,539 you have ADHD yeah I I I go see a psychiatrist and a therapist for those 1036 01:56:56,539 --> 01:57:03,170 things this is this is the the better version believe it or not oh god oh no kitty i'm 1037 01:57:03,210 --> 01:57:09,729 sorry oh i kicked her kitty please come here i'm sorry 1038 01:57:09,729 --> 01:57:16,920 forgive me come here you can cancel me now i didn't mean to she 1039 01:57:16,920 --> 01:57:23,470 's looking up at like get under my feet and i get mad that i scooted her 1040 01:57:23,470 --> 01:57:29,619 slightly with my heel oop uh A- A- U- D- H- D? 1041 01:57:29,680 --> 01:57:34,170 What is that? I don't know. I- You know. 1042 01:57:34,170 --> 01:57:40,819 Oh, it's like you got a little bit of the tism, a little bit of 1043 01:57:40,819 --> 01:57:46,029 the- Well, okay, so here's the dill pickle. 1044 01:57:46,029 --> 01:57:53,029 I had one doctor who said I fit on the spectrum, and I had one doctor 1045 01:57:53,270 --> 01:57:59,600 who said, no you don't. And ultimately, I was like, well, what does this change? 1046 01:57:59,899 --> 01:58:03,359 Nothing. Well, all right, then. So maybe. 1047 01:58:03,409 --> 01:58:09,899 I don't know. I like structure. I like a routine. 1048 01:58:10,020 --> 01:58:15,390 That was another thing I was kind of realizing after being away from the show a... 1049 01:58:15,500 --> 01:58:19,859 I'd come back to take care of the cat and just do basic stuff. 1050 01:58:19,960 --> 01:58:27,180 And then I'd leave again for quite some time. I like a pretty structured 1051 01:58:27,180 --> 01:58:33,869 routine but the like super nitty-gritty minutiae are left a little 1052 01:58:34,289 --> 01:58:41,239 bit more loosey-goosey but it's gonna follow like a set structure and and getting outsi... 1053 01:58:41,239 --> 01:58:48,500 my enclosure during my regularly scheduled enrichment time is not ideal for me. 1054 01:58:48,600 --> 01:58:52,029 Alright, so. Didn't work out. Not a fan, personally. 1055 01:58:52,180 --> 01:58:57,909 Uh. I don't trust a doctor, says Sage Freedom. 1056 01:58:58,000 --> 01:59:01,590 My doctor is more base than I am. So, there's that. She's awesome. 1057 01:59:01,680 --> 01:59:06,600 She's a wonderful human being. And, uh. So there's that. 1058 01:59:06,699 --> 01:59:13,899 Uh. Anyways. 1059 01:59:14,000 --> 01:59:21,119 Don't let them get you on Adderall. too late for that sister uh do you know your... 1060 01:59:21,119 --> 01:59:27,750 type i'm an infj i don't know i feel like i always lie on those tests like not on purp... 1061 01:59:27,750 --> 01:59:34,350 i feel like some of the questions are super like it's like i don't know i guess that 1062 01:59:34,460 --> 01:59:41,130 so i like i like meeting people i like being extroverted i like being introverted too 1063 01:59:41,130 --> 01:59:48,810 i can do both get you a motherfucker who can do both um What's the next one? 1064 01:59:49,250 --> 01:59:54,170 What does the N stand for? Racist? Neuro-typical? 1065 01:59:54,189 --> 01:59:59,569 I feel like neurodivergent. Sorry, if this is... 1066 01:59:59,569 --> 02:00:06,630 Listen, hey, if you feel like learning, it's usually about just kind of finding systems 1067 02:00:06,630 --> 02:00:13,180 that work for you as opposed to trying to, you know, use one top-down, one-size-fits-... 1068 02:00:13,279 --> 02:00:16,960 going-about-life kind of scheduling system for yourself. 1069 02:00:16,960 --> 02:00:23,500 So if that helps you, helps you find structure, helps you find sanity or people... 1070 02:00:23,500 --> 02:00:30,220 I think those are net positives the term neurodivergent makes me 1071 02:00:30,229 --> 02:00:37,260 just it's like it rose to prominence in like the peak hunger 1072 02:00:37,319 --> 02:00:43,890 games divergent uh post-apocalyptic baddie era it's like i 1073 02:00:43,890 --> 02:00:50,729 'm just like katniss Everdeen I have ADHD and I'm Divergent I don 1074 02:00:50,729 --> 02:00:57,310 't know uh but maybe that's just a stupid thing to say maybe that has absolutely 1075 02:00:57,430 --> 02:01:04,039 nothing to do with each other but I've always perceived it as that and it makes me laugh... 1076 02:01:04,039 --> 02:01:10,630 want to I don't want to I'm just like Divergent was objectively one of the most... 1077 02:01:10,630 --> 02:01:17,199 series of all time and in fact had a lot to do with the ultimate kind of death kn 1078 02:01:17,199 --> 02:01:23,960 ell of the young adult dystopian crypto fascist future uh 1079 02:01:24,060 --> 02:01:30,680 books that we were just being deluged with at the time which i think is very funny but u... 1080 02:01:30,680 --> 02:01:37,560 's actually quite funny but still i will not confirm or deny 1081 02:01:37,560 --> 02:01:44,220 what i am maybe i'm actually from space yo mama's brown sugar listen here how about that 1082 02:01:44,590 --> 02:01:51,199 silent are you a turk silent is a proud black woman she 1083 02:01:51,199 --> 02:01:57,840 is an ebony queen aren't you silent uh i don't know it don 1084 02:01:57,840 --> 02:02:04,350 't matter everyone's everyone of you genuinely are welcome here even if you 1085 02:02:04,350 --> 02:02:10,899 're not flat all right but you're the one requirement for being here is that you got... 1086 02:02:10,899 --> 02:02:17,670 bit in them all right that's it maybe not to everyone maybe it looks 1087 02:02:17,670 --> 02:02:24,279 like but you know that's it that's the only requirement and it turns out that's someth... 1088 02:02:24,420 --> 02:02:30,939 and i think that's beautiful so there uh au adh it's i mean to me it's 1089 02:02:30,939 --> 02:02:37,890 like it's australian adhd i don't know that's stupid joke stupid 1090 02:02:37,970 --> 02:02:44,770 joke um so many people are trying to claim to be a neurodivergent autistic empath these... 1091 02:02:44,770 --> 02:02:51,510 listen the empaths i have got those empath bitches dialed down to like a couple of ke... 1092 02:02:51,510 --> 02:02:58,029 tropes and it is so funny whenever they check boxes and then the latest one if you if... 1093 02:02:58,029 --> 02:03:05,029 around for any of those rants and or uh we've talked about that before the latest uh... 1094 02:03:05,140 --> 02:03:11,899 i've seen is those who claim to to be a true empath they're also really into 1095 02:03:11,899 --> 02:03:18,779 tarot cards like really into them posted about them online a lot i don't know why i... 1096 02:03:18,779 --> 02:03:25,399 it's funny and if you now that i've told you that you'll see it now too it happens enou... 1097 02:03:25,529 --> 02:03:32,039 see it it's very funny so if you see a tarot card totem empath out there get out of the... 1098 02:03:32,090 --> 02:03:38,840 person will kill you and then say it's because they love you or they love they lo... 1099 02:03:38,840 --> 02:03:45,479 had to stab you for being uh you know conservative or whatever that's true... 1100 02:03:45,479 --> 02:03:52,119 is murdering conservatives oh sorry sorry no this isn't the z 1101 02:03:52,140 --> 02:03:58,739 izian cult yet I'm not racist but I do have flare-ups in 1102 02:03:59,069 --> 02:04:05,689 traffic sometimes that's like a funny sentiment but am I I don't I don't 1103 02:04:05,689 --> 02:04:12,210 look at other people's cars when I'm driving I don't know the race of other people arou... 1104 02:04:12,210 --> 02:04:18,739 mean aside from like general stereotypes about types of cars which you know if we c... 1105 02:04:18,739 --> 02:04:25,399 here some of them are true um i got followed by two grown-ass men 1106 02:04:25,399 --> 02:04:32,479 i flipped a dude cut me off this was back in auburn uh i was probably 1107 02:04:32,529 --> 02:04:39,199 like 22 at the time this dude cut me off so like i don't know i was at him and i flipp... 1108 02:04:39,199 --> 02:04:45,890 those fuckers chased me for miles and i called my boyfriend at the time uh at his... 1109 02:04:45,890 --> 02:04:52,770 than happy to oblige i was like i'm about to pull up in the parking lot of the fraterni... 1110 02:04:52,880 --> 02:04:59,779 you know they had been drinking all day as is tradition on the weekends and we're like h... 1111 02:04:59,899 --> 02:05:06,520 the shit out of me so i don't i'm not gonna die uh to like mean mug someone 1112 02:05:06,520 --> 02:05:13,020 in traffic i'm just kidding you know i'm sure that they're a delightful child of god 1113 02:05:13,020 --> 02:05:20,029 and whatever color they are is none of my business people kill each other over traffic 1114 02:05:20,300 --> 02:05:26,920 quite a bit which is crazy so i ain't trying to that scared the shit out of me actually... 1115 02:05:26,920 --> 02:05:33,479 't know about traffic because again it was his fault he cut me off i flipped him off... 1116 02:05:33,479 --> 02:05:40,029 if you accidentally cut me off and you don't give me like one of those like oh my god m... 1117 02:05:40,029 --> 02:05:46,760 you have to give like the like my bad wave and if you don't i should be legally entit... 1118 02:05:46,760 --> 02:05:53,260 think that's a fair trade you don't get to then chase me down in my honda crv around the 1119 02:05:53,600 --> 02:06:00,369 campus of auburn university when i'm 22 years old i was like what the hell why do now so... 1120 02:06:00,539 --> 02:06:07,439 into that because i didn't think that was going to escalate so don't escalate... 1121 02:06:07,529 --> 02:06:14,310 which you don't even the great equalizer in a lot of ways is you don't all kinds of craz... 1122 02:06:14,569 --> 02:06:21,520 people are driving around all the time the likelihood of running into someone who is... 1123 02:06:21,520 --> 02:06:28,060 be willing to kill you over a traffic light uh that could be right next to you you nev... 1124 02:06:28,060 --> 02:06:34,689 be willing to kill them first i guess not that this is like pvp mad max i've never s... 1125 02:06:34,829 --> 02:06:41,470 around right and kill each other it's like the overall theme of that movie i think uh... 1126 02:06:41,470 --> 02:06:48,260 the fury road brothers that was a line from it right uh anyways just don't you 1127 02:06:48,260 --> 02:06:55,069 know don't get killed over traffic all right that's embarrassing it's like 1128 02:06:55,220 --> 02:07:01,829 i started getting my groceries delivered like once every couple of months to do 1129 02:07:01,829 --> 02:07:08,439 like heavy orders because ultimately i don't want my cause of death to be tripping and... 1130 02:07:08,489 --> 02:07:15,130 trying a whole cat litter upstairs so it's worth the extra like ten dollars to get it... 1131 02:07:15,260 --> 02:07:21,960 else like loading the cart i'm like i'll pay someone and i ordered like that and a bunc... 1132 02:07:21,960 --> 02:07:28,560 shit and i tip them five dollars thanks sucka but imagine honestly like i 1133 02:07:28,560 --> 02:07:35,460 die okay picture this i die and everyone's like oh my 1134 02:07:35,460 --> 02:07:42,039 god the deep state took her out i can't believe this she was on to something she's... 1135 02:07:42,159 --> 02:07:48,659 papa l logs into wherever and he's like you know comes to tell everyone about it and o... 1136 02:07:48,760 --> 02:07:55,470 what happened right like i got taken out by like a hillary clinton murder drone and th... 1137 02:07:55,470 --> 02:08:02,079 to explain to you that the 20 pound tidy cat box was just too much 1138 02:08:02,079 --> 02:08:08,899 for old Elle and she fell and she died downstairs that's not something that I wou... 1139 02:08:08,899 --> 02:08:15,409 put my dad through that so uh don't flip people off in traffic because they might k... 1140 02:08:15,609 --> 02:08:22,500 stairs if you are not super confident that it's gonna be like it's not 100% in the ba... 1141 02:08:22,560 --> 02:08:25,989 I think these are good life lessons. You know, good to go by. 1142 02:08:26,260 --> 02:08:31,100 Hey, just so you know, the Minnesota State Fair starts next week. 1143 02:08:31,199 --> 02:08:37,850 Evil grin. Cornelius, was it... Cornelius, if you're still here, was it you 1144 02:08:37,850 --> 02:08:41,090 that sent me the picture of the Tim Walsh booth last year? Or was it you? 1145 02:08:41,319 --> 02:08:52,039 One of y'all was sending me pictures. It was fun. somewhere 1146 02:08:52,039 --> 02:08:58,710 the bird has to be free i like flipping people the bird but to me it's not like li... 1147 02:08:58,710 --> 02:09:05,289 we move on i get like that's my i feel like i should be legally entitled if you don't gi... 1148 02:09:05,289 --> 02:09:11,899 off we all feel better you get to be like oh i can't believe but then we just we part ways 1149 02:09:11,899 --> 02:09:18,720 that's it a bird is like it was just like the 90s thing and all of my humor is derived f... 1150 02:09:18,720 --> 02:09:25,260 to 20 year old youtube videos in 90s movies and culture that's it that's all i got 1151 02:09:25,260 --> 02:09:31,819 give me the bird well no give it to me i'm gonna give it to you or we could give each... 1152 02:09:31,880 --> 02:09:38,729 it's like a peace offering you know what do we how i'm sorry i just right 1153 02:09:38,800 --> 02:09:45,550 surely you have seen hang on um i gotta find this now 1154 02:09:45,550 --> 02:09:52,479 that there's this video out there on the interwebs of like two dudes in europe... 1155 02:09:52,479 --> 02:09:59,149 only only in europe because only things happen who are like across a major street... 1156 02:09:59,149 --> 02:10:05,699 each other just like aggressively flipping each other the bird they like step up on e... 1157 02:10:05,699 --> 02:10:12,619 to like but they're just like oh it's so fucking funny hang on it's the most europe... 1158 02:10:12,630 --> 02:10:22,670 seen in my life uh two European dudes aggressively flipping each other 1159 02:10:22,670 --> 02:10:33,470 off hang on this it oh my god that work 1160 02:10:33,579 --> 02:10:40,140 oh my god i found it it turns out that works hang on this 1161 02:10:40,140 --> 02:10:46,939 is from 2018 that's great or beyond i don't know this looks like 1162 02:10:47,010 --> 02:10:53,920 one of those okay hang on uh i don't want to okay i want to look 1163 02:10:53,920 --> 02:11:00,460 at the embedded tweet bitch i'm gonna go the the real deal sorry 1164 02:11:02,100 --> 02:11:09,119 I'm so old you know you're getting old when you 1165 02:11:09,119 --> 02:11:15,720 gotta like close one eye to see the right button to click okay this is what I saw if... 1166 02:11:15,720 --> 02:11:22,899 seen this great this was posted December 4th 2018 by a peace 1167 02:11:22,899 --> 02:11:29,470 bag guy I don't know who this person is so the most intense fight I've ever 1168 02:11:29,470 --> 02:11:36,119 seen oh I guess they walk away from each other that's what happens spoiler alert th... 1169 02:11:36,119 --> 02:11:58,079 saying hang on like you have a choice do what I say I 1170 02:11:58,079 --> 02:12:08,300 maybe it's staged I don 1171 02:12:08,399 --> 02:12:15,430 't know but I choose I choose to believe it's real you know I do I choose 1172 02:12:15,430 --> 02:12:22,279 to believe it's great there's also time in our in our collective cultural 1173 02:12:22,560 --> 02:12:29,619 history wherein mooning was a way to you know just like show 1174 02:12:29,649 --> 02:12:36,409 someone your ass yeah if you had something to say about it they talk to the 1175 02:12:36,409 --> 02:12:43,279 hand no kiss my ass i don't feel like that's really been carried forth quite so much as... 1176 02:12:43,279 --> 02:12:49,810 things but if you actually go back through i think it's like 20 like right after 9 1177 02:12:49,939 --> 02:12:57,000 -11 maybe maybe uh there was a spy balloon that was spotted on the border 1178 02:12:57,000 --> 02:13:04,680 of canada and the u.s and uh there was like a big it's like a big protest 1179 02:13:04,779 --> 02:13:11,550 of the spy balloon called moon the balloon which i think is very funny uh i think that 1180 02:13:11,600 --> 02:13:18,239 's beautiful little moments but yeah mooning is like a group of things is not really a... 1181 02:13:18,340 --> 02:13:24,930 much anymore it's classic classic move uh i don't really care about trump's policies o... 1182 02:13:25,069 --> 02:13:31,859 with the jews his trolling game is why i voted for him i mean we all like trump tha... 1183 02:13:31,960 --> 02:13:38,510 that bit we knew that already that was well established i'm gonna take the good with t... 1184 02:13:38,510 --> 02:13:45,180 positive in a lot of ways for a lot of different things I love him I think he's... 1185 02:13:45,239 --> 02:13:51,909 under people's skin and makes them will like they lose the will to fight back you know ... 1186 02:13:52,020 --> 02:13:58,529 the most only the most foolhardy and tedious riddled psychopaths are the ones left 1187 02:13:58,529 --> 02:14:05,050 standing to make commentary I think that's great that's great fun for me I enjoy it u... 1188 02:14:05,069 --> 02:14:11,979 think that you would be an absolute fucking fool to forego every last scrap 1189 02:14:11,979 --> 02:14:18,939 of political capital and power and cultural power uh that the right-wing republican 1190 02:14:18,939 --> 02:14:25,449 party has accumulated in general because the party is filled with a bunch 1191 02:14:25,859 --> 02:14:32,539 of like lunatic zionists uh that say god wants us to bomb those 1192 02:14:32,539 --> 02:14:39,090 children sorry that was my mike huckabee impression it's not very good he didn't... 1193 02:14:39,170 --> 02:14:45,810 he would say it internally god promised we'd bomb them 15,000 years ago or whatever 1194 02:14:45,810 --> 02:14:52,510 let's do it that's the that's just the case uh and it's not just it's 1195 02:14:52,510 --> 02:14:59,100 everywhere uh you know apac is so good as to give us the i think it's uh they have like 1196 02:14:59,100 --> 02:15:07,420 a 75 capture of the total political body so ultimately you you 1197 02:15:07,420 --> 02:15:15,100 have built into again the political and cultural capital and power and 1198 02:15:15,100 --> 02:15:21,739 movement and momentum uh and you are not beholden to every single bad you know take... 1199 02:15:21,789 --> 02:15:28,770 single politician ever uh the whole idea is to steer it forward uh and long 1200 02:15:28,770 --> 02:15:35,489 after uh you know trump has retired and lived to be 500 in mar-a-lago 1201 02:15:35,489 --> 02:15:42,189 as he deserves uh it'll be it'll be different people so i would not like the whole like ... 1202 02:15:42,199 --> 02:15:48,710 split and start a holy party why you like you had every bit as much to do with building... 1203 02:15:48,710 --> 02:15:55,350 anyone else you don't like something in it yeah well that's politics change it 1204 02:15:55,350 --> 02:16:02,270 damn that's my take the america shut up elon retard 1205 02:16:02,270 --> 02:16:08,930 lauren the media's freak out over national guard in dc will backfire on them what if ... 1206 02:16:08,930 --> 02:16:15,710 to look cleaner after all literally everyone that i've seen posting from dc have been... 1207 02:16:15,710 --> 02:16:22,289 're like i can walk down the street and these are not like a granted you know the algori... 1208 02:16:22,399 --> 02:16:28,949 what you want to see i guess but like these are not people who would be like they're n... 1209 02:16:28,949 --> 02:16:35,530 ing at it in general not even like a thank you it's just like i actually haven't been... 1210 02:16:35,530 --> 02:16:42,069 is like i mean it has become synonymous with car break-ins like in the same vein as san... 1211 02:16:42,069 --> 02:16:48,750 isco almost which is crazy because that's just like a there are certain places where... 1212 02:16:48,750 --> 02:16:55,309 windows broken so roll them down at least that's literally a strategy in san francis... 1213 02:16:55,309 --> 02:17:02,120 're going to go through your car anyways uh there are places like that in dc now uh an... 1214 02:17:02,120 --> 02:17:08,930 random fucking drive-bys and gang violence and shit that's not 1215 02:17:08,930 --> 02:17:16,879 a way to live and I think that more than anything I 1216 02:17:16,879 --> 02:17:23,420 mean Trump has to live there too right now he wants to be like no one on this planet wou... 1217 02:17:23,420 --> 02:17:29,920 know if he could relocate his White House there I'm sure he would but he cannot uh I... 1218 02:17:29,959 --> 02:17:37,020 want to be surrounded about all that shit the problem is is that uh it's kind 1219 02:17:37,020 --> 02:17:43,520 of it's like same thing with stopping the just absolute abscess of of 1220 02:17:43,520 --> 02:17:50,139 border flood like people just flooding out of the border day in and day out and they're... 1221 02:17:50,139 --> 02:17:57,010 well there's quite simply nothing we can do oh really uh and prove that wrong I think... 1222 02:17:57,010 --> 02:18:03,979 who have been kind of trapped there by you know family finance circumstance 1223 02:18:04,250 --> 02:18:10,870 or whatever who just have accepted that this is the way it's gonna be uh finding out oh 1224 02:18:10,969 --> 02:18:17,850 maybe it is that maybe it actually is that simple I can't imagine I 1225 02:18:17,940 --> 02:18:24,520 can't imagine I'd have a lot of nice things to say about fucking bowser after that 1226 02:18:24,520 --> 02:18:31,500 or not wait not bowser which one's the wait yeah i get bass and bowser mixed up sorry... 1227 02:18:31,500 --> 02:18:38,049 's racist but i do so i want to believe me too thank you for the phone cave to 1228 02:18:38,049 --> 02:18:44,979 ad shout out this stream has been brought to you by cave toad over on ye olde foxhole... 1229 02:18:45,500 --> 02:18:52,299 thank you so much truly that's so kind of you um the corruption of zion goes 1230 02:18:52,299 --> 02:18:58,959 decades well at this point century plus using the word for their purpose is corruption a... 1231 02:18:59,059 --> 02:19:06,319 's plan dig into the Talmud and genealogy that's racist I dabble 1232 02:19:06,319 --> 02:19:13,120 in my spirit you know I'm not I'm not averse to talking about it I just 1233 02:19:13,280 --> 02:19:21,840 that is the kind of knowledge base that takes just the passage 1234 02:19:22,469 --> 02:19:29,260 of time truly to form better understanding of but you know who is like a absolute schola... 1235 02:19:29,260 --> 02:19:35,819 and the discord he's very very very intelligent and there's a lot of things th... 1236 02:19:35,819 --> 02:19:42,500 kind of put within historical context which i think is nice i just think that if 1237 02:19:42,500 --> 02:19:50,110 you tell me that i need to support your politics your nation 1238 02:19:50,110 --> 02:19:57,010 's military behavior uh an ethnic group and a religious group with absolutely 1239 02:19:57,030 --> 02:20:04,100 zero questions or else i'm anti-semitic okay then i guess i am what a crazy thing 1240 02:20:04,250 --> 02:20:10,829 to ask of people so i don't have any problem with people who are jewish but if like if you 1241 02:20:10,829 --> 02:20:17,549 're like that's anti this anti-semitic i guess sure write it down put me on the lis... 1242 02:20:17,549 --> 02:20:24,420 'd be all right my friend told me my hometown seriously looked at drones to help with crime 1243 02:20:24,469 --> 02:20:31,069 this was 10 years ago uh so happy looking to the near future oh yeah i know that was um 1244 02:20:31,069 --> 02:20:38,120 i was looking at this the other they haven't had a chance to follow through with it tha... 1245 02:20:38,549 --> 02:20:45,469 vehicles my my city huntsville uh just signed up for like a program for this uh utility 1246 02:20:45,559 --> 02:20:52,200 vehicles garbage trucks etc the city is already using for you know its basic 1247 02:20:52,309 --> 02:20:59,399 functions uh they are fitting them with AI powered cameras to be 1248 02:20:59,399 --> 02:21:04,059 able to spot all manner of things. So it's everywhere. 1249 02:21:04,059 --> 02:21:11,000 All the time. Always. It's like that Gorgon stare, but make it your own backyard. 1250 02:21:11,100 --> 02:21:21,159 Micro bitch wants 1251 02:21:21,159 --> 02:21:25,319 ... Oh shit, I forgot that. Micro bitch wants the circle, the circle knives. 1252 02:21:25,819 --> 02:21:32,430 it's not cutlass what's it called the indian circle knife i bet 1253 02:21:32,530 --> 02:21:39,299 that'll pull it up forget the fucking name it has a cool name though 1254 02:21:39,399 --> 02:21:49,479 hang on uh circle knives chakram there we 1255 02:21:49,479 --> 02:22:00,819 go That's pretty good 1256 02:22:01,569 --> 02:22:12,049 . Just imagine this tiny lady coming at you, cutting 1257 02:22:12,049 --> 02:22:18,139 your face in half. I don't know if these are real or not, that's why I'm not putting th... 1258 02:22:18,239 --> 02:22:26,700 There's so much like AI and image search now. I mean, it was always dubious, but. 1259 02:22:26,799 --> 02:22:34,940 It's a circle, it's a circle blade. It looks like a hubcap, but it'll cut your head off... 1260 02:22:35,040 --> 02:22:41,540 My friend told me, I don't know, I don't know. 1261 02:22:41,590 --> 02:22:44,700 I'm I'm mooned a Russian destroyer in the 80s. Hell yeah. 1262 02:22:44,700 --> 02:22:49,139 That's awesome. What'd they do? Aside from exist, which is fine. 1263 02:22:49,239 --> 02:22:52,700 But, Elle, the deep state sometimes uses cat litter to kill people, didn't you hear? 1264 02:22:52,860 --> 02:23:00,620 Well. It could happen. I reckon. 1265 02:23:00,780 --> 02:23:12,100 Anything's possible. I'm retiring from knife fighting 1266 02:23:12,200 --> 02:23:18,729 after totally losing to Papa Elle. Yeah, well, he, you know. took that knife from a... 1267 02:23:18,729 --> 02:23:25,329 champ champion uh i love the story a few years ago about the guy in new zealand fly... 1268 02:23:25,329 --> 02:23:32,370 on flag and someone called and reported a nazi flag wait what that's funny sorry i'm... 1269 02:23:32,370 --> 02:23:39,360 here thinking about all the stuff i still need to do but uh and i'm starting to get... 1270 02:23:39,389 --> 02:24:10,110 thinking about it Klingon flag Nazi report There 1271 02:24:10,190 --> 02:24:14,389 's a post from Reddit like three years ago. Anyone know what this flag is? Oh, here we... 1272 02:24:14,579 --> 02:24:22,860 A racist flag. I'd fuck you up in New Zealand. 1273 02:24:22,959 --> 02:24:35,889 Paywall on my... 1274 02:24:36,680 --> 02:24:43,649 No. No. if you want another piece of uh some 1275 02:24:43,649 --> 02:24:50,190 fun some fun trivia uh i i can't find like whatever yes that did happen and also 1276 02:24:50,190 --> 02:24:56,799 there's a post from like three years ago on reddit where he's like here i'll show you... 1277 02:24:56,799 --> 02:25:03,379 i know it's not ideal but like google reverse image search is pretty good you could... 1278 02:25:03,379 --> 02:25:10,139 out but he wanted people wanted people to be like he's a proud nazi you gotta go kill 1279 02:25:10,139 --> 02:25:16,670 him oh reddit derogatory redditors um are you a hecking nazi thanks 1280 02:25:16,670 --> 02:25:28,760 for the gold kind stranger jewish sorry shut it down okay 1281 02:25:28,760 --> 02:25:37,010 uh See, the problem is, you might not think I 1282 02:25:37,010 --> 02:25:44,049 'm funny, but I think I'm hilarious. So, as long as I keep laughing at my own jokes, t... 1283 02:25:44,200 --> 02:25:49,000 It's stupid, but it's very funny to me. 1284 02:25:49,100 --> 02:25:54,100 Oh my god. I've never thought about that before, but that's very fucking funny. 1285 02:25:54,200 --> 02:26:03,180 Okay. Oh boy. Okay. Oh, yeah. 1286 02:26:03,280 --> 02:26:10,180 Okay. If you want another chronically online piece of not news that people were up in a... 1287 02:26:10,180 --> 02:26:16,870 the other day, there is a girl. There's a whole subgenre of TikTok that involves 1288 02:26:17,280 --> 02:26:24,079 Panhellenic Rush Week that for whatever reason, it's because I think it 1289 02:26:24,079 --> 02:26:28,959 's fun, every year my algorithm will show it to me. 1290 02:26:30,319 --> 02:26:36,969 And much like anything online, the girls who go through Rush who are like just the... 1291 02:26:36,969 --> 02:26:41,879 get they usually end up with very large followings throughout their college. 1292 02:26:41,940 --> 02:26:45,000 A lot of Tuscaloosa like Panhellenic TikTok is insane. 1293 02:26:45,100 --> 02:26:52,659 There's a girl named Kylan who is kind of one of those such chosen sorority baddies from... 1294 02:26:52,760 --> 02:26:58,959 She recently did like a photo shoot sitting in a I believe World War Two era plane. 1295 02:26:59,280 --> 02:27:05,790 yeah duh contextually of course uh like doing like a music video on the side of this 1296 02:27:05,790 --> 02:27:12,379 plane there are a few uh swastika flags and people were 1297 02:27:12,379 --> 02:27:19,190 like oh she's a nazi oh she's a nazi she's sitting in a nazi plane 1298 02:27:19,190 --> 02:27:25,879 uh without realizing that that's how they that's how they marked their confirmed kil... 1299 02:27:25,879 --> 02:27:32,399 american like planes in world war one and two it wasn't just nazi uh flags it was uh lik... 1300 02:27:32,399 --> 02:27:39,280 got a confirmed kill you stuck their flag on the side of your plane and so yeah uh i guess 1301 02:27:39,280 --> 02:27:45,920 she they probably whatever uh people are trying it's like that actually literally... 1302 02:27:45,920 --> 02:27:50,959 you fucking retard but you don't care you don't want you don't actually care about w... 1303 02:27:51,059 --> 02:27:57,780 You just want to go. This pretty blonde girl from Tuscaloosa who is famous for doing... 1304 02:27:57,780 --> 02:28:02,819 stuff is a secret Nazi retard. Take absolutely brain dead. 1305 02:28:02,920 --> 02:28:09,469 Delightful though. Um, so that's another low stakes piece of, uh, just 1306 02:28:09,469 --> 02:28:14,809 brain rot drama from the internet from this week. That's your roundup. 1307 02:28:14,920 --> 02:28:21,430 That's all I know. Braveheart, in parentheses, 1995, where 1308 02:28:21,579 --> 02:28:24,940 the entire Scottish army performs a mass mooning of the enemy. 1309 02:28:24,989 --> 02:28:28,290 I've never seen Braveheart. Sorry. I know. 1310 02:28:28,290 --> 02:28:32,450 I know. But no. American Pie movie started the mooning thing. 1311 02:28:32,450 --> 02:28:36,440 Did they? I have seen that, but it's been a long time. 1312 02:28:36,440 --> 02:28:43,149 I do like Eugene Levy. I think he's very funny. They don't teach history at all, an... 1313 02:28:43,149 --> 02:28:49,840 teach, or did, is wrong. I mean, after watching, oh my god, 1314 02:28:49,840 --> 02:28:56,440 that's what I was meant to do. If you have a child who is currently 1315 02:28:56,440 --> 02:29:03,260 in K-12 school, who is going back to school, I wanted to round 1316 02:29:03,260 --> 02:29:10,139 up a bunch of syllabuses and borrow, strategically, a bunch of different 1317 02:29:10,430 --> 02:29:17,139 versions of textbooks. if if you have a kid who's like just let me know what their 1318 02:29:17,139 --> 02:29:23,850 uh whatever grade their history but i've been meaning to do this for years and i've real... 1319 02:29:23,940 --> 02:29:30,510 writing about the current era in history textbooks because there's always like that... 1320 02:29:30,510 --> 02:29:37,290 now but who knows what's gonna happen i just i really want to see it in context so i do... 1321 02:29:37,290 --> 02:29:44,290 i almost said that Okay, let's see. I guess I could look 1322 02:29:44,329 --> 02:29:50,870 up my high school syllabus. What I was going to do 1323 02:29:50,889 --> 02:29:57,610 was do the, uh, syllabus for like the most popu- like the largest student body, like 1324 02:29:57,719 --> 02:30:04,940 public and private school of each state and see what like the difference difference is... 1325 02:30:04,940 --> 02:30:15,770 here's syllabus academic guide okay i'm just like 1326 02:30:15,770 --> 02:30:22,500 okay man we didn't have okay i mean it's not this 1327 02:30:22,500 --> 02:30:29,579 is i went to hazel green high school home of the Trojans. 1328 02:30:29,579 --> 02:30:35,600 Go Trojans. Out in Hazel Green, Alabama. This is very different. 1329 02:30:35,700 --> 02:30:41,229 Okay, where's your damn... I just want to see the books. 1330 02:30:41,290 --> 02:30:44,450 I don't feel like I'm in the right spot. Okay. 1331 02:30:45,100 --> 02:30:49,239 Back in my day, you just kind of showed up. 1332 02:30:49,340 --> 02:30:59,719 Instructional program, maybe? Nah. course 1333 02:30:59,719 --> 02:31:09,350 descriptions okay uh i want the textbook list do you not do 1334 02:31:09,350 --> 02:31:17,569 that man this was it was a large school out in the 1335 02:31:17,569 --> 02:31:24,680 damn country we didn't have none of this back when i graduated dang 1336 02:31:24,780 --> 02:31:35,010 okay hazel green high school i thought 1337 02:31:35,010 --> 02:31:41,680 the lady at the front desk was it uh okay okay you don't 1338 02:31:41,680 --> 02:31:48,680 say what the what the books are oh wait is it in it tell 1339 02:31:48,680 --> 02:31:56,120 me you're assigned books you bastards so anyways if you haven 1340 02:31:56,209 --> 02:32:02,760 't easy access to your textbook list or just like you know which books are coming 1341 02:32:02,829 --> 02:32:09,520 home with just like message it to me on discord or wherever i just want to like i... 1342 02:32:09,520 --> 02:32:16,069 they don't put the syllabus out anymore i'm this is the first search i've done so clea... 1343 02:32:16,180 --> 02:32:22,950 damn he used to be like here's the books get them well you 1344 02:32:22,950 --> 02:32:33,010 'd have to get all of them what the listen back in 1345 02:32:33,030 --> 02:32:40,120 my day we didn't have none of this we had circle pizzas sometimes though and they we... 1346 02:32:40,819 --> 02:32:47,500 school enrollment what the fuck is that dog I just want to 1347 02:32:47,590 --> 02:32:54,629 see the books whatever okay well home of the trojans 1348 02:32:54,629 --> 02:33:01,409 didn't learn nothing there didn't learn nothing nothing on the site just right 1349 02:33:01,409 --> 02:33:08,010 now so anyways shout out to my alma mater I don't talk to anyone from there anymore... 1350 02:33:08,010 --> 02:33:14,719 's that i know it's just shocker i didn't really i wasn't really like i think 1351 02:33:14,719 --> 02:33:21,510 everyone's weird in high school but like i was also i didn't really put a lot of effo... 1352 02:33:21,909 --> 02:33:28,690 friendships kind of thought that was just something that happened naturally on its o... 1353 02:33:28,690 --> 02:33:35,850 but i did not know that and i was lazy and dumb about it but 1354 02:33:35,959 --> 02:33:43,110 it's a good time I just wanna I will pay full 1355 02:33:43,170 --> 02:33:49,690 price for these books mind you so if that's something that gives you gives you pause o... 1356 02:33:49,690 --> 02:33:56,360 worry about it don't worry your pretty little head about it of course I'll pay full pric... 1357 02:33:56,469 --> 02:34:03,520 by people who hate me of course I will it's legal to do it that way uh okay but i am u... 1358 02:34:03,540 --> 02:34:10,120 call it a night because i i got i'm like sitting here 1359 02:34:10,120 --> 02:34:16,659 i'm starting to get first of all i think i need to eat something because i'm starting... 1360 02:34:16,690 --> 02:34:23,420 what was i talking about i think i need to eat something and then i need to i need to... 1361 02:34:23,510 --> 02:34:30,020 in my life right now I want a book list since it's school season you know it's school... 1362 02:34:30,110 --> 02:34:36,780 's got a syllabus sitting around somewhere and I want to finish getting it's the great 1363 02:34:36,940 --> 02:34:43,899 L reset sponsored by Klaus Schwab and Dawn Powerwash um 1364 02:34:44,200 --> 02:34:54,379 let me do foxhole pills this is the song I wrote for you bo 1365 02:34:54,379 --> 02:35:00,979 op yeah i'm getting loopy a bit and it's not like i'm sleepy it's okay 1366 02:35:01,129 --> 02:35:08,500 make okay do um release it there we go i just didn't click with enough i guess conviction 1367 02:35:08,600 --> 02:35:15,489 oh you won't like me when i'm angry ah i was 1368 02:35:15,489 --> 02:35:22,649 very liberal then as well i waited to go to college to 1369 02:35:22,649 --> 02:35:29,409 get liberal but i sure did liberal and very like actually had no idea 1370 02:35:29,409 --> 02:35:36,399 what the fuck i was talking about some liberals like they really study the blade... 1371 02:35:36,399 --> 02:35:43,100 you gotta know praxis you know i did not i just repeated what i heard snarky people s... 1372 02:35:43,239 --> 02:35:53,909 i conflated that snark with intelligence truly the worst 1373 02:35:53,909 --> 02:36:03,680 I mean the right hates history the guy Trump picked to lead 1374 02:36:03,680 --> 02:36:10,329 BS BLS had a photo of the Bismarck behind him and news called it a Nazi ship it turns ou... 1375 02:36:10,329 --> 02:36:15,219 anyone ever shows footage of like like Hindenburg, mind you, or other things. 1376 02:36:15,319 --> 02:36:21,200 Like, that bitch was covered in swastikas. People get all sad about it still to this... 1377 02:36:21,299 --> 02:36:28,040 Why would you get sad over a Nazi dirigible, dirigible, I don't know how to say that word. 1378 02:36:28,379 --> 02:36:34,059 Or is it just that you, it's, is that it's performative for fucking no one? 1379 02:36:34,239 --> 02:36:37,940 Oh, oh no. Is that it? Ugh, weird. 1380 02:36:38,040 --> 02:36:45,899 Weird! Weird to do, to be honest. remember when 1381 02:36:45,950 --> 02:36:52,680 I pitched my most amazing idea for a pizza? you've 1382 02:36:52,680 --> 02:36:59,379 heard of nothing burger but you've never heard of nothing pizza uh oh I've heard of... 1383 02:36:59,479 --> 02:37:07,700 or wait, none pizza with left beef right? that's a tumblr joke revealed 1384 02:37:08,399 --> 02:37:16,620 my hand federal raid outside california newsome event oh 1385 02:37:16,620 --> 02:37:23,250 sorry i can't oh my uh honesty chat wasn't updating dang sorry sleep sweet no i have... 1386 02:37:23,250 --> 02:37:29,959 do god has answered my prayers literally you tell i'm not gonna sorry thank you for 1387 02:37:29,959 --> 02:37:36,659 something i've been asking for for years uh i'm sleepy though i don't know i just got... 1388 02:37:36,739 --> 02:37:43,629 to do and i'm thinking about it because I wanna do it, dammit that's it, that's the... 1389 02:37:43,629 --> 02:37:50,409 's the rub, so my mom's coming over on Sunday to help get some 1390 02:37:50,479 --> 02:37:56,989 shit straight, so I think probably by next Tuesday will be Battleship 1391 02:37:56,989 --> 02:38:03,649 will be somewhat returning to not full, you know, I don't wanna oversell it, I don't, ... 1392 02:38:03,649 --> 02:38:10,200 are happening, and I'm very pleased so uh again going from a zero 1393 02:38:10,200 --> 02:38:16,899 to one is wild but here we are at a full one wouldn't you like 1394 02:38:16,899 --> 02:38:23,420 to know micro oh she went full caps on you like a boomer we're boomer posting uh 1395 02:38:23,520 --> 02:38:31,219 he's gonna run for president isn't he who i think everything i learned in college has... 1396 02:38:31,219 --> 02:38:38,000 says NOLF. Well, sorry. Me too. 1397 02:38:38,000 --> 02:38:45,000 But it's fun. It's fun. It's nice. 1398 02:38:45,000 --> 02:38:51,719 I think that there's something kind of, and I say kind of, I think it's actually very 1399 02:38:51,719 --> 02:38:58,469 exciting, ultimately, that there is so much more to know and to learn and that 1400 02:38:58,469 --> 02:39:05,059 that that very like rigid uh set of you know official narrative 1401 02:39:05,059 --> 02:39:11,840 history you know historical whatever that there's so much more to it and that 1402 02:39:11,840 --> 02:39:18,569 there's such a richer history and and more nuanced uh state of humanity and the 1403 02:39:18,649 --> 02:39:26,329 development of of it you know globally to take the actual beauty 1404 02:39:26,670 --> 02:39:35,840 and and miracle truly that the development of of humanity and and 1405 02:39:35,940 --> 02:39:42,670 life as we know it on earth and to absolutely retcon it 1406 02:39:42,719 --> 02:39:49,459 into good guys bad guys for no reason but skin is retarded 1407 02:39:49,510 --> 02:39:56,030 that is retarded work there's the humanity history develop it's it's 1408 02:39:56,059 --> 02:40:02,760 so fascinating i mean it anyways oh you're super intelligent but you 1409 02:40:02,760 --> 02:40:09,409 you got to put it into all team good guy for no reason and team bad guy for 1410 02:40:09,409 --> 02:40:16,180 no reason and that's it oh you're you're the smart one but you like absolutely 1411 02:40:16,229 --> 02:40:22,780 are thriving and just living within the noble savage trope and absolutely see nothing wrong 1412 02:40:23,159 --> 02:40:29,879 with it fetishizing anyone who's not white and you see nothing wrong with that oh wow... 1413 02:40:29,879 --> 02:40:36,540 have a phd so i guess it's it must be correct right it's absolutely asinine so i think t... 1414 02:40:36,540 --> 02:40:43,450 's something very beautiful in learning that life is actually more varied uh full of ma... 1415 02:40:43,649 --> 02:40:50,629 than prescribed black and white literally in many instances uh lines of 1416 02:40:50,629 --> 02:40:57,319 thinking and i think anytime you reduce that reduce your own mind to that uh currently ... 1417 02:40:57,319 --> 02:41:03,850 it all short you know obviously i think generalizations stereotypes you know they... 1418 02:41:03,959 --> 02:41:10,500 for a reason because it's just a pattern that's been established but when you're... 1419 02:41:10,590 --> 02:41:17,389 like your day-to-day or person-to-person interactions in a safe environment granted... 1420 02:41:17,399 --> 02:41:24,090 heads on the street trying to reason with them that's not that's not what I'm saying... 1421 02:41:24,090 --> 02:41:30,770 it's cool I think it's nice I think that humanity is obviously flawed but has so 1422 02:41:31,170 --> 02:41:37,879 many just it's neat so many different capacities and multitudes within 1423 02:41:37,879 --> 02:41:44,379 each and every one of us so that's nice nasa equals nasi coded 1424 02:41:44,479 --> 02:41:51,020 formed by actual yeah i know i live in their backyard literally they talk we have a who... 1425 02:41:51,020 --> 02:41:57,530 i astronauts we love one of on brown around here all of our buildings are named after ... 1426 02:41:57,540 --> 02:42:04,309 i mean like it was over in germany what were they gonna do i came over here keep being... 1427 02:42:04,309 --> 02:42:11,020 germans i don't know um operation paperclip there's like a whole blurb about it in the... 1428 02:42:11,020 --> 02:42:17,909 rocket center they have a like a reproduction of one of them brown 1429 02:42:17,969 --> 02:42:24,909 's office pretty cool so uh so there my dang adhd 1430 02:42:25,000 --> 02:42:31,540 wait listen we're all a little little adhd it's because 1431 02:42:31,549 --> 02:42:38,180 they put red die 40 and all the vaccines or whatever unironically 1432 02:42:38,229 --> 02:42:45,069 somewhat paperclip is not what people think it is it's it was top talent recruitment 1433 02:42:45,459 --> 02:42:52,139 in it spaldo how you doing my guy I see no chat reload uh well I'm about to end 1434 02:42:52,139 --> 02:42:58,819 the stream anyways to be fair to be fair it's like that's shit though but good 1435 02:42:58,819 --> 02:43:05,350 to see you my guy oh also again I can feel the um and I'm trying to think 1436 02:43:05,350 --> 02:43:11,850 I don't actually know the last time I ate anything I can kind of feel the like the... 1437 02:43:11,850 --> 02:43:19,000 ia kicking in aka the the blood sugar situation starting to decline 1438 02:43:19,100 --> 02:43:25,889 feeling a little stupid little little stupid around the gills so that's not an expressi... 1439 02:43:25,889 --> 02:43:32,989 it is here now uh it's what so uh brain fog 1440 02:43:33,250 --> 02:43:40,709 i i so yes but for me it's blood sugar i 1441 02:43:40,709 --> 02:43:48,340 was like i was yeah so i can i can feel it setting in uh currently 1442 02:43:48,379 --> 02:43:54,950 which i mean it can be uh it can be counterbalanced but i like it 1443 02:43:54,950 --> 02:44:01,520 's i probably wouldn't want to drive a vehicle right now i feel like pretty impai... 1444 02:44:01,520 --> 02:44:08,149 like a little stupid it's a little dumb a little dumb upstairs like when um i called... 1445 02:44:08,229 --> 02:44:14,760 not actually hypoxia uh but the first time i ever had like a big episode during 1446 02:44:14,829 --> 02:44:21,360 an episode and i didn't hadn't realized what it was i was like i thought it was somethi... 1447 02:44:21,360 --> 02:44:27,920 a red bull anymore kind of was i guess um i thought it was a caffeine thing and 1448 02:44:27,940 --> 02:44:34,739 uh i i didn't realize how weird and bad i appeared on that stream because i 1449 02:44:34,739 --> 02:44:41,340 was just like i was so out of it um you know like you make bad judgments that's what a lot 1450 02:44:41,340 --> 02:44:48,469 of bad plane crashes happen alternatively with hypoxia if uh the cabin plane depress 1451 02:44:48,500 --> 02:44:55,079 urized and the yeah anyways i can't even connect that dot all right it's because th... 1452 02:44:55,079 --> 02:45:01,709 's getting stupid and i gotta go eat something real quick so i'm gonna go uh ha... 1453 02:45:01,709 --> 02:45:08,840 for real hardcore hardcore racist version 2025 didn't see that art coming 1454 02:45:08,840 --> 02:45:15,340 but here we are uh boomers were meant to be the coolest generation well i i 1455 02:45:15,340 --> 02:45:21,959 love boomers generally i've absolutely seen the uh i've seen the 1456 02:45:21,959 --> 02:45:28,590 armpit of that uh generation too but every boomer i've ever run into i guess because... 1457 02:45:28,590 --> 02:45:35,379 with my parents my parents are cool uh my parents are both right on the cusp of boom... 1458 02:45:35,379 --> 02:45:41,979 x i think they're both technically under the line but they're all badass they're fun 1459 02:45:42,010 --> 02:45:48,719 they listen to good music those are boomers i like the boomers i don't like 1460 02:45:48,719 --> 02:45:55,329 are people like anne abel and if you don't know who that is again i need to log off a... 1461 02:45:55,379 --> 02:46:02,229 ically online but i don't wanna so i won't look up anne abel she's this absolutely... 1462 02:46:02,229 --> 02:46:08,989 these videos about how nobody in her family likes her because she loves them too much she 1463 02:46:08,989 --> 02:46:15,790 tries she's crazy that's what i think of when i think of like crazy boom 1464 02:46:15,819 --> 02:46:22,719 er that's it's like um cluster b shit to be honest gen x representing 1465 02:46:22,799 --> 02:46:29,649 i think another that could be also part of it is that um whereas I don't know have you ever 1466 02:46:29,719 --> 02:46:36,229 if so if you have like a boomer or like older gen x parent or if you 1467 02:46:36,340 --> 02:46:42,889 yourself are one uh the first time you ever heard someone say something to you like oh... 1468 02:46:42,889 --> 02:46:49,420 were just a kid you didn't deserve that like I watched my dad's brain like I watched hi... 1469 02:46:50,129 --> 02:46:56,770 expressing to him that he didn't deserve what like the treatment he received as a child... 1470 02:46:56,940 --> 02:47:03,569 uh i don't know stuff like you know have you ever considered they had 1471 02:47:03,569 --> 02:47:10,200 a sad childhood just open the border jk don't do that uh but i'm 1472 02:47:10,670 --> 02:47:17,569 gonna go it's it's nearly midnight it's close enough i'm sleepy i'm hungry i 1473 02:47:17,719 --> 02:47:24,239 'm gonna get hangry i'm not careful and i got stuff to do so uh stay tuned that's all 1474 02:47:24,420 --> 02:47:31,010 i got i don't know we're gonna make it bros we really are uh go and get and 1475 02:47:31,040 --> 02:47:37,559 i'm stalling while i find the buttons thank you for noticing but noticing is 1476 02:47:37,959 --> 02:47:52,739 illegal okay bye damn it okay Can 1477 02:47:52,739 --> 02:47:59,600 't you see I'm falling? A guy like you should wear a warning. 1478 02:47:59,639 --> 02:48:06,559 It's dangerous, I'm falling down. I'm falling down. 1479 02:48:06,559 --> 02:48:15,020 There's no escape, no I can't wait. I need a hit, so baby give me it. 1480 02:48:15,069 --> 02:48:24,239 You're dangerous, I'm loving it. Too high, 1481 02:48:24,819 --> 02:48:31,979 can't come back Losing my head, standing round and back Do 1482 02:48:31,979 --> 02:48:42,879 you feel me now? With the taste of your lips 1483 02:48:42,950 --> 02:48:50,159 , I'm on a ride You're toxic, I'm slipping 1484 02:48:50,159 --> 02:48:56,659 under With the taste of a poison paradise. I'm addicted to you. 1485 02:48:56,760 --> 02:49:04,559 Don't you know that you're toxic? And I love what you do. 1486 02:49:04,659 --> 02:49:13,639 Don't you know that you're toxic? It's getting late 1487 02:49:13,639 --> 02:49:23,520 to give you up. I took a sip from my devil's cup. 1488 02:49:23,530 --> 02:49:30,030 Slowly, it's taking over me. Too hard, can't 1489 02:49:30,100 --> 02:49:39,340 come back. Losing my head, spinning round and round. 1490 02:49:39,340 --> 02:49:50,780 Do you feel me now? With 1491 02:49:50,780 --> 02:49:54,319 the taste of your lips, I'm on a ride. 1492 02:49:54,409 --> 02:50:01,180 You're toxic, I'm slipping under. With the taste of a poison paradise 1493 02:50:01,190 --> 02:50:07,059 , I'm addicted to you. Don't you know that you're toxic? 1494 02:50:07,159 --> 02:50:15,059 And I love what you do. Don't you know that you're toxic? 1495 02:50:20,440 --> 02:50:32,659 that's all i got 1496 02:50:32,909 --> 02:50:43,559 i'm so tired i 1497 02:50:43,559 --> 02:50:53,690 'm beat I've been working physical physical labor y 1498 02:50:53,690 --> 02:50:56,260 'all all right gonna get back